Saturday, January 19, 2008
11:56 PM
Am disfigured and hating it!!!

Okay, so maybe I'm sort of exaggerating. Don't think I can sit here calmly and blog if things were that serious..

Got this sudden rash on my face that started yesterday and got worse..arghh. No idea what caused it and now I don't even dare to apply my usual face products. =\

Saw a doc this morning after waiting for hours..almost felt like giving up mans. At least the doc wasn't too bad..but the medicine he prescribed for me is amazing la.

I've never seen such a minuscule tablet pack so much punch before.

He told me it's anti-itch and will bring down the swelling, the only drawback being drowsiness. He did mention it's quite extreme drowsiness, but this is ridiculous mans.

I suspect the medicine isn't anti-itch actually. It just aims to knock you out cold so you won't feel the itch. Haha. I fell asleep while standing at the bus stop and almost fell. Super kua zhang can!! And after I got home, I basically slept till almost 9pm. I think I'm going to be totally out cold again tonightt.

And the itch hasn't gone away!!! *tears hair*

If it doesn't clear up by monday, I'm not going to school mans..but that will mean missing three GMS classes..shit laa.

Ohwells. Hope it clears up asap by tmr. And partner, hope your eye gets better tooo! Thanks for "nagging" me to see the doc hahaha. Maybe I should have made you queue for me. Hmm. =p

It's going to be back to school and classes..and fyp and whatnot...hope I survive this sem well.. *cross fingers

me
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11:56 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Friday, January 18, 2008
4:28 PM
8 weeks have passed by just like that. Pretty much in a flash, though at times the day feels like forever.

I still remember pretty much hating my first day at work, liking the 2nd day, then suddenly after that, work just didn't seem so bad after all.

It got better and better, not to mention, plenty of fun with all the nice pple I work with. =)

Such a mixture of feelings now on my last day..officially, that is. Still don't know if I'll be coming back to work as a temp.

Much as I whined about certain tasks and the occasional heavy workload, I'm really going to miss this place and the pple here..things on the level have just gotten more lively, then I'm leaving. Haiyo.

But ohwells..there will be others leaving and new pple coming in too..I guess I really will miss this internship experience after all. And the pple!! Definitely. =)

Not quite looking forward to school cos' paying attention during lessons and going haywire over projects just don't appeal to me anymore. Though I do enjoy life as a student and the freedom it gives me. Ohwells, final semester already, might as well make full use of it. What are the chances that I'll get to enjoy life as a student like I have been doing..haha.

Life's more or less settling into a new kind of routine..and I'm adapting faster than I expected myself to actually. Not really grieving and upset all day long..on the contrary, I'm pretty much my usual self, feeling happy once more, just that many many things and places still bring back memories.

I guess I'm doing what I define as "positive" grieving..I'm constantly reminded of past happy memories and somehow, when thinking of all the happy times we used to share together, it's just wrong and difficult to be sad and cry cos' they really bring a smile to my face. Plus, daddy wouldn't want us to cry and cry. I can just imagine his exasperated look and warning not to overdo the grieving. Haha..

So yes, I'm coping pretty well and I think I will continue coping this well for the rest of my life. Cos' although some say that time heals all wounds, the scar will always be there. And certain kinds of wounds will somehow act up time and again, no matter the time lapse.

Thanks for all your concern dearies! I'm still up and surviving, no problems there. Just keep me entertained when I ask you to and don't forget my existence. =)

The past week, I've been thinking of quite alot of stuffs..and one conclusion I've finally reached is that I should really give in to my urges to be spontaneous. All the things I've always wanted to do and places I want to go..I tend to indulge abit in daydreaming, then somehow, I just end up tucking them at the back of mind, forgotten, till the next phase of impromptu daydreams come along.

Don't want that any longer..partly cos' this is the real side to me I've kept hidden for so long, under pressure and afraid to disappoint. I love spontaneity, and I don't want to force myself to lead a routine life any longer. Life is short and you'll never know what will happen. I don't wanna end up with regrets when it becomes too late for me to do what I want.

Okay la, so the things I wanna do are quite duh, nothing ultra adventurous like skydiving or skinny-dipping haha. Just simple things which bring simple joys..and travelling! I'm really having serious plans about doing quite a fair bit of travelling before/after I graduate..including grad trip! Daddy probably wouldn't like my way of thinking, but I'd like to think that I know what I'm doing and what I wanna gain from this.

I quite envy friends who can just book an air ticket, pack a few things into their bags and just leave for some country the next day. I wish I have such freedom too..working towards part of it. Haha. I'd love to backpack in southeast asia and europe..and visit usa too..so many places I wanna go and see!

Money money..haha. Should seriously think of getting a temp part-time job while studying this sem. Hmm.

Okay boring post I know. But I'm abit bored tooo. Haha. Shall try to sync myself back to school mood this weekend and catch up on whatever I've missed!

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
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.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]