Saturday, November 03, 2007
12:54 AM
Emo mood earlier.

The hidden tears fell again upon hearing a particular song. Gave me quite a shock, though at the same time, I concede that I haven't really gotten over things fully.

Maybe it's just me la. You seem perfectly fine and happy with the new phase in your life..for all the brave and happy front I put up, time alone is always the worst.

I wonder, when I really really do get over it finally and put everything behind me, can we still be friends like before?..

At the moment, I think I'm still stuck in a halfway ditch. Wandering between the memories of a lost relationship, and possibility of a continued friendship. I guess what pple say is really true..it's not easy to go back to before, as though nothing happened. Maybe I'm really incapable of doing that after all. Only time will tell..

Anyways! Enough about all this. I think I should stop harping on what makes me sad..and focus instead on happy thoughts.

Mayhui's bday surprise turned out to be successful after all. =) Many thanks to nigel! Poor guy had to lie to her like mad. Haha. Still, glad that we managed to have a wonderful gathering.

Hall again tmr night and most prob a huge part of next week. Means mugging and more mugging! Exams starting already..siannn.

I will let go...soon I hope. Just don't let me be alone and I won't think..sighh.

me
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12:54 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Thursday, November 01, 2007
3:17 AM
Finally finished with my essay assignment!!

It was a complete nightmare of the hugest proportions. My god.

And last night when I went to bed, the word 'existentialism' kept echoeing through my mind. Scariness!!

Okays that's over and done with. Poor bern's left alone in hall tonight..I didn't expect az to go home on a thursday haha.

Meeting up tmr! Can't wait. One last chance to slack and have fun before serious mugging starts. It's just another..13 days to exams!! Shittt.

Went to the hospital to visit hwan jiejie and my new baby nephew! Anders is uber cute omg. And super cannot keep on his mittens and booties lol. Don't dare to carry him though. Newborns are so fragile! Can't wait to see him again!! =))

I am so tired from all the ultra ultra late nights this entire week. Hall does this to you. At least, to me la. My bodyclock is going bonkers all over again. Pity this place of freedom has to come at the most inopportune time. Like when exams are almost here hello? Sians!

Okays I know this post has been totally choppy and not much different from blogging in point form, but there you have it. That's the best I can do with an overworked brain which has rapidly depleting braincells. Shucks man.

It's bedtime, that's for sure. Getting zombified soon.

Ohh and before I hit the 'post' option; I passed my FTT!! Going to start lessons really soon. At long lastttt. Hope it'll be a third time lucky and I'll pass driving on the 1st try too! *crosses fingers

Love the feeling of being in contact with the world..without a worry. Love finding back my old friends and just simply....enjoying. =)

me
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3:17 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Sunday, October 28, 2007
5:56 PM
Supposed to go studying with ql today, but I woke up with the dreaded cramps!! Arghhhhh.

Same typical routine which repeats every month..curling up on the sofa holding onto my hot water bottle for dear life..swallowing panadols like they're free..and of course throwing up my lunch. But strangely, I tend to feel better after that. And not hungry. Weird.

Anyways, feeling slightly slightly better now..think it's the panadol taking effect at last. Starting to take longer and longer to work on me. Sians. Whole day wasted just like that!! Kept dozing off and going to the toilet once every hour or so..the feeling really sucks. Girls who have it easy every month really don't know how lucky they are. Try breaking out in cold sweat one moment, perspire the next, curl up feeling totally sick and vulnerable, and maybe you'll understand a little of my monthly nightmare. Sighhh.

Was supposed to go back hall tonight cos' there's fyp meeting early tmr, but at this rate, I don't even know if I can make it to the meeting. Or even for 311 tutorial after that. From experience, my nightmare lasts 2 days in a row. Looks like tmr will be a repeat of today...bahh.

Think I really have to start studying tonight. Haven't done any revision according to today's schedule cos' of my cramps. Saii. Damn waste time la! Now still studying so I can afford to miss classes. But when I go out to work..I really don't know how mans. =(

Shan's party last night was funn! Though bern and I arrived rather late. Oops. Haha. And the flowers we had delivered to her were totally lovely! Super pretty..even more beautiful than in the picture catalogue. Except for the fact that they strangled the bouquet around the accompanying bear instead of packaging it the way I asked them to!! Damn off la..but I righted that wrong hahaha. And they acty gave her the receipt with my name and contact on it! Damn sai la, it was supposed to be sent anonymous! Spoilt the whole surprise..but ah wells, what's impt is that she liked it!

Okays it's time for dinner then panadol again..before the whole nightmare acts up.

Totally sunday blues. =(

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]