Tuesday, October 02, 2007
1:00 AM
I have so many many many pictures to put up!!

But they're all in my lappie. While I'm using my house computer. Bahh.

Been taking loads of pictures like nobody's business!! Each time my camera goes out with me, it comes back loaded with hundreds of photos!! I looooove cam-whoring with my babes!! =))

Recess week's come and gone..I played more than I should, studied less than I planned to, shopped more than I expected, in short, it was really a BREAK week for me!

But once term starts again, reality hits. How upsetting.

Suddenly all the datelines are looming, presentations and assignments and tests and whatnot...arghhh. Havne't decided if I should S/U my lit elective!! I'm super not studying for that module, and I really don't know if I can get at least a B for it. To make things worse, my test assignment went missing! Couldn't find it at the cubicle, so I dunno what's my test grade! Wanted to use that to gauge if I should S/U. Damnnnn.

On a more positive note..it's getting easier to let go with time. As each day passes, the hurt lessens, the tears reduce, the heartbreak heals bit by bit. But maybe, just maybe, I'm still not really accepting reality yet. Some part of me feels as though it was all a bad dream, a nightmare. Not good!!

But oh wells..I am starting to learn to let go. It still feels a little weird to talk as though we're normal friends, but that's better than not talking at all cos' we're enemies. I still feel a twinge at times when I see things that remind me of you, of us. I have to really muster up discipline to not buy everything that you like, make stuffs for you like I used to, drop you a msg with the same endearment I used for over a year.

It takes time. But I'm slowly healing. And I know you are too.

Anyways! I had dinner with someone today! It's no one secretive la, just a friend. But wells..plenty of mixed emos at the same time too. Just as well that his top priority now is studies. Seems like everyone's top priority now is studies, except for me! How shitty. I need to motivate myself! Just keep slacking my days and nights away. Sianns.

Have many exciting things coming up!! Not counting datelines and tests. Haha. Thank god for such happy events and wonderful friends to keep me sane. I think my life has never been better! In some ways la, though not all. Hope things can only get better though...even if not for me, at least for those close to me, those I hold close to my heart..

And buddy, cheer up okay! Though you haven't told me your whole long story, and I'm still waiting to hear it, I don't want you to be upset by anything! Just focus on studies, stay positive and happy! Will meet you soon, then I'll have a mini surprise for you! Haha.

And to my dear wy...don't ever give up okays? Always stay positive and tell yourself you're the best! You can do it! Don't wanna see you so upset and stressed..your pretty face is made for beautiful smiles! Love you girl, cya soon! *huggs

It's bedtime! Nites world!! =)

"The line between friendship and love is often invisible to the Aquarian." So very true..

me
scribbled at
1:00 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]