Thursday, September 20, 2007
10:14 PM
I think this entry is long overdue..have had many impulses to just turn on my lappie, go to blogger homepage and start typing my entry. But I was afraid of what my emotions would lead me to type, thus the delay.

It's been almost 2 weeks..but it still feels like it happened yesterday. Over a year together, even longer spent as more than just friends, and suddenly everything ends.

It's hard to take, hard to accept, even harder to forget...

The first few days were torture..the tears were neverending, the sadness overwhelming, everything just seemed so wrong. And I was completely lost.

I wonder, if you hadn't sent me that fateful sms, would we still be together today?...

The only good thing that came out of the breakup is that we parted with no hard feelings. I'm glad we had a heart-to-heart talk and cleared up the air..settled all problems and issues..before deciding to end it all..I guess that's why we're still friends.

I thought I'd be able to take it without much pain and heartache, cos' my feelings have been fading for quite awhile now. It tends to come with unreciprocated emotions. That's why I really wasn't prepared for the flood of tears and sadness that accompanied me constantly the next few days..

Okay. Enough about the sadness. I'm calmer now, the tears have lessened lots and lots, though the heartache still remains somewhat. It's not so easy to let go just like that..after having invested so much, loved till it hurt, cried till my heart shattered.

But there were the happy moments too..the beautiful memories I'll always cherish. For those are the ones I choose to remember, and hold close to my heart always. You once gave me all the stars and more, flew me up to the highest peak, loved me so much I could hardly breathe..

All I want to say is, thank you.

You'll always have a special place in my heart. Kept hidden, but never forgotten. The first true love I've ever experienced..thank you for all the joy you've given to me, the smiles you've brought to my face..

I hope you'll be happy always. It's time to move on and leave the unhappiness behind. Who can foretell what will happen next time? But for now..I'm glad I haven't lost a good friend in you. I'll always be here for you, just as I know you'll always be there for me. Take care..

Let the final tear drop...and then no more..

me
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10:14 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]