Saturday, May 12, 2007
1:47 AM
I'm bored..but I don't feel like sleeping!!

It's late already though..mummy was chasing me to bed just now. Haha.

Anyways, had my first band prac again today after a super long time. Haven't gone for damn long, plus the exam break..extremely rusty already. Not that I was even good in the first place. Haha.

Kind of miss playing my trumpet..but I can tell I'm no longer up to it. Where I once eagerly looked forward to improving, hoped to play better with more practice, I now boast no more motivation to improve my playing skills.

It's like I don't really care anymore..I still enjoy playing, but I won't go out of my way to improve, practice or learn new things..I'll just play till the day I step down, then it'll be over.

I didn't even plan to go back for practices initially..but thinking again..I felt I should la. After all, I haven't stepped down, I have a duty to fulfil to the band, to the rest of the comm. I've already slacked way too much since becoming hon gen, found way too many excuses to get out of stuffs..it's time I did something before I finally bid the band goodbye. So..back to practices! And blah.

But whatever it is, band is no longer my top priority. If I have to go late for weekday pracs cos' I need to rush down from NUH, I'll just turn up late. If I need to work on saturdays so that I can earn some money, I will opt to leave prac early. Adeline isn't going to be happy, but I don't have a choice. My family situation now is the most important. Money is the next.

I'm damn hungry. Arghh. Okay that's super random.

It's mother's day! Happy mother's day mummy dearest!! Since it's past midnight. Bought my mummy a handbag and a card!! Going to give her tmr. Haha. And I've offered to cook dinner for everyone tmr too! Give her a break. And I'll probably take over ironing of the mountain of clothes too. She's overworked looking after everyone in the family. Esp. daddy..

Okay, think I should go to bed soon. Getting tired..

Ciao!!

I miss you.

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Tuesday, May 08, 2007
11:53 AM
Ling jiejie said that I seem to blog alot during exam period, but hardly at all once my papers end. How true that is. Hahaha.

And that lucky cousin of mine is happily holidaying in japan now!! Me envious. Haha. Enjoy dearest cuzzie!! =)

Yesterday was damn hectic in a sense..spent my entire day at the hosp. Woke up uber early to help cook daddy's lunch then kelvin kor sent us to the hosp..it's so scary to realise just how many pple are afflicted with cancer. The centre was crowded from the early hours of the morning, and till evening when we left, it was still crowded.

I feel so sad seeing all the patients..yet at the same time, hearing some of them talk can be quite a good form of motivation. The patients there, especially those who've endured the illness for quite awhile, share stories of their suffering, and tell fellow patients they must be strong, etc. I think daddy should mix around with them more. Haha. But he's always so tired..my heart breaks just seeing how he's aged. Sighh.

Didn't go with them to the hosp today cos' I'm tasked with cooking lunch for daddy so that he can eat once he gets back..another 10mins and I'm going to the kitchen. Haha.

Quite sian at home actually..have to think twice before going out. And even if I want to go out, there's no one to go with me. Come next week, my batch pple from nbs will be starting their PA..even less pple to accompany me since I don't have attachment. Ah wells.

Anyways, on something totally random here: online sprees are addictive!! Not that I buy alot; rather, I just like to look at the sprees and see if there's anything nice to buy. Haha. Was telling mummy about it, and she never object to me spree-ing!! Thought she might at first, cos' they're always telling me to be careful about buying things online and blah, getting cheated blah blah. But sprees are much safer la. Haha. And it's a good way to pass time too!!

I need to sign up for theory test soon. Anyone can help me? I'm clueless. =\

And I have a damn trojan horse in my laptop!! TMD. Help me somebody!! Although my AVG says it's healed, I don't quite believe. Now cannot ask daddy to help me already..he needs to rest..but I don't know how!! I dowan my lappie to diee...save it somebody.. =(

I need to cook lunch!!

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]