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Thursday, April 12, 2007

2:15 AM

I am totally behind on my revision schedule!!! Shiat.

Overslept this morning so woke up muchhh later than intended. Could have covered like 2 textbook chapters in that time period la. Damn.

Anyways, did abit of work after lunch for 2 hours plus, before my day started wasting away...all thanks to an asshole!!

To cut the long story short, the peer evaluation form we handed up to prof garnered some defensive comments by our nonexistent 5th group member..and we started discussing online how to reply the prof's email.

Bitched about him till I had to leave hall to meet dearie. That was super long can!! Total waste of time!! Bahh.

Ohh and by the way, please do NOT watch sunshine cos' it sucks!! It seemed rather typical from the beginning, what with an earth-saving plan and all running into problems onboard the spaceship. Until the part when this bizarre creature appeared and started going around murdering the crew. Okay fine I'm not exactly giving the movie any credit here; it might actually be slightly better than this. But the thing is, I was so tense throughout the hour plus movie la. It was torturous sitting through it!! I don't like. =( If not for the fact that the tickets were free, I'd much rather choose mr bean over sunshine. Pui.

Came back hall and bitched somemore about that person until we finally drafted an email reply to prof. Hope he replies tmr!! Wanna see what he says haha. He better not give him an A!! Or I'll be damn pissed.

Haiyo I'm like 2 days worth of work behind in my study schedule la. Damn siannn. Think even if you give me 48hours a day for the next 2 weeks, I also can't finish studying. =(

On a brighter note, I quite enjoyed my outing! Although the movie marred a little of my mood after that. Don't know why I get affected by movies so easily. My mood can totally change upon walking out of the cinema theatre. Don't ask me why! And don't give me a hard time. I just need awhile to adjust. Haha.

Thank you for the 10 items. Love!! =)

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

12:40 AM

It's thursday now (since the clock has struck past midnight) and I haven't done any studying for wednesday!! Arghh.

My wed passed by in a blur..so fast!! Ended up not going for 215 cos' no seats! So PS and I attempted to study some accounting before the revision class at 1230. And we were mostly trying to figure out the difference between traditional costing and ABC. To sum it up succintly, we have this really high chance of dabao-ing this module. Esp if we don't do well for BSC. Omg. I don't dare to think any further. >_<

Revision class turnout was scary la. Never seen so many pple squeezed in one seminar room before! She should really have just booked an LT and made it compulsory for her 4 tutorial classes. Bahh.

Got a msg halfway from mummy saying that they were at NUH cos' daddy complained of a pain in his neck..gave me a scare. Not too sure of the details, but apparently the doc said not to worry too much so..yeah. I just hope everything's fine..*prays. And they can't bring forward RT treatment too..so late la. Though I don't feel they've given a good enough reason, there's nothing we can do too..

Effec comm quiz wasn't that easy lor! Spent the hour flipping my book and notes wondering where to find all the elusive answers. All the choices seemed so likely to be the right answer!! In the end huimin and I just tikam here and there and submitted it. End of elective! Hope we can get A after all. Hahaha.

Went to find kc after that and we spent the next dunno how many hours talking. That's what we do best hahaha. Ended up back in hall only at 9plus, where I promptly spent the rest of my night chatting on msn and just simply slacking till..where I am now. Omigosh. Slapp me somebody!!

I am supposed to be mugging and I am, instead, stoning and slacking and doing everything BUT study. On a whim, I walked out of my room and took a picture of the opposite block:

Though it's not really clear or well-taken, it's supposed to show that hall people never sleep. Haha. I think I can go out at 3am in the morning and the picture won't look very different. Ohh anyways..this pic was taken to sort of remind me to study. Assuming that alllll the people in those lighted up units are mugging their night away. While I'm slacking. Which is reallllly WRONG.

Okay I'm starting to get the idea. Turn on panic mode already.

Thank god classes are officially overrr! I can finally start my study break.

Slacking break more like it. Ha.

me
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12:40 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

7:21 PM

I guess my last entry + msn nick sounded a wee bit more depressed than I'd intended. Oops.

To my dears out there who've been worried and wondering if something's happened...I'm okay! Thanks for all your concern..I was in a slightly sad mood last night, but I'm lots better now. Seen things in a new light, and I'm trying to work towards that understanding. =)

Anyways, I am super short of time and I have a TON of things to do by today!! Help!!

Effec comm tets tmr and I haven't started studying. Bahh. Probably going in there to read the book for the first time. As usual la. Sometimes I wonder why I bother wasting money to buy textbooks when I hardly read them. Haha. It's all because of the "OPEN BOOK" factor which eventually convinces me to spend the moolah.

I feel so relieved that channels presentation was last week! I'd just die if it's tmr la. Somemore right after tmr's seminar got accounting revision class..arghh. Don't see how I'm going to be able to prepare the questions for revision. Still need to acquaint myself with my effec comm textbook. And not forgetting following the freaky study timetable I drew up yesterday.

I have no timeee!!! =(

On a happier note, more assignment grades back today!! TVC wasn't that fantastic, but given the fact that I was quite last minute and not in the best of moods when I did it then, I guess such a grade is good enough. I shall not complain!! And our efforts for marcom proj finally paid off! I'm so glad we did well enough by our standards..haha. Totally a 4-member group effort rather than 5-members lor. Nonexistent 5th member!!

And we got A- for PBL!! I can't believe it haha..although it's only 6%, compared to BSC's 20% grading, I'm happy enough! Thank god for pauliana..haha. Now we just really need to pray super hard for BSC..20% left hanging..fate unknown..*prays

Okay I need to get back to effec comm. I have only a few hours left! Unless I don't intend to sleep tonight. Which will probably be the case. Sadness. Nvm, 3 more weeks and I'm free! 30th April, wait for meee!!

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Monday, April 09, 2007

11:33 PM

My msn nick reads:
- geri - will look back no more.
i will no longer yearn for the past, just simply cherish them as memories.

It's taken me so many months and so much sadness before I finally understand this point.

To put it simply, you're no longer the person you were a year ago. Not really because you've changed drastically, as I've been convincing myself to believe; rather, it's because this is who you really are in the first place. The person I saw back then was just a side of you which surfaced to..how should I say. Catch my attention? Make me fall for you?

I don't mean this in any way bad. But I guess this understanding is long overdue, on my part. I should have understood this and seen it from the correct perspective a long time ago, instead of giving hell to both you and me by wanting something which I know I can never get again. So, instead of putting myself in misery and exasperating you by constantly moaning over the fact that you've changed, I might as well accept it as a fact that this is the person you really are.

You have changed, just that you've changed to your true self. And by accepting this, maybe I can finally stop having illusions about the wonderful memories we shared and hoping for the impossible cos' I know I'm never going to get that again.

It's quite a sad realisation, maybe even one which I've tried to deceive myself about, hide myself from. The truth always hurts; no different in this case. It hurts particularly bad cos' I feel as though I'm giving up on something which I've held on to for so long, praying so hard for. But in another aspect, there's some relief too. I can stop being the idealistic lover I think I've been, and start learning to accept what is really placed in front of me.

Like I said, it's more for me to understand than for you to see the point. I'd hoped that I wouldn't need to come to such a realisation, but some truths, you have to face up to them. In the long run, it's not going to help anybody if I hold on so tightly to the illusions.

I guess I'm sad at finally giving up on the fairytale I'd so hoped for, but maybe by accepting this, I can see the situation in a new light and pave a new path ahead to walk.

I hope.

I will never forget those memories cos' they're really what I cherish alot. Thanks for having given me that once upon a time.

me
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11:33 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

5:04 PM

I just did up a study timetable for exams (like finally) and nearly got a heart attack.

I need to study/revise/memorise/totally understand concepts from no less than 3 to 4 lectures daily!! Which translates to anything from 5-10 textbook chapters. *faints

I am so going to DIE. Omg.

Exams end in 3 weeks! And I haven't started. Arghh.

I am going to start the moment I finish this entry and publish it. Promise!

Anyways, on a happier note, prof returned our group project report and individual assignment for 213! And surprisingly we got A- for our group report! Given how we missed out like the most important part and misunderstood another aspect of the case..A- is pretty good! But like what PS said, if the whole class got like A and A+ and only we got A-, then I'll be damn sad. Haha.

Ohh! And he gave me A- for my individual assignment too! The journal article analysis which I did the day before submission dateline. And somemore prof knew it la! Cos'I emailed him about my choice of article and he said it was wrong!! I almost died there and then. Switched to a whole new article which I anyhow did an analysis of, going round and round in circles about one single keypoint only, and he still gave me a decent grade! Omg I'm really sooo thankful la..whether it's because he graded leniently cos' he knew I changed article last minute, or because of some other reason, I'm just really, really glad that I didn't flop the entire assignment. Thank god for giving me this miracle. And my oral presentation grade's not bad too..I'm satisfied with it! So apart from class participation grade which he won't reveal (and which I think will be badddd), my 213 coursework is not that bad after all! I just hope my exam grade will be good enough to at least maintain an A-..I think I'm really sooo lucky. To have been so distracted and done slip-shod work, yet I can still have a decent coursework grade..I'm immensely grateful!! =)

Okay, that's enough excitement for a day. Haha. The rest of today feels so sian. Just looking at my newly done up revision plan makes me wanna burrow into some hole and not appear until 30th April at 3.30pm. Bahh.

30th April HURRY COME!!!

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Sunday, April 08, 2007

7:44 PM

Back in hall again! Slacked my entire weekend away as usual..only read a little bit of my pricing textbook. PS was right; it's the ultimate boring mans. I recommend it to anyone who suffers from insomnia. Bahh.

Ohh yar! I'm getting my junkfood tees! Two at one short. I regretted it after serena placed the order and even paid the money, so I thought of selling one off after it's shipped over. But now I don't need to! Cos' my darling boy's gonna buy both for me! He's the sweetest! Said that he hasn't gotten me anything for awhile now, so he'll buy my Little Misses for me even if he's going broke! Thanks baby! =)

Little Miss Scatterbrain and Little Miss Sunshine! *me loves

Spent good friday evening with my boy..he treated me to a yummy dinner and we walked around! Didn't manage to catch mr bean's holiday cos' there were only first row seats left, and I didn't wanna get a neck ache. Haha. We'll catch it next week! Not forgetting my free tickets to sunshine. Don't know if that movie's nice though. Response seems good at movie theatres! *red indicates selling fast. And the timeslots were all in red!

I am going to learn driving after all! This hols, after exams end. I'm quite excited! Hope I pass on the first try. My dearest ah ee left a cheque on my table while I was aslp; she told me to use it to learn driving or for anything else I need! Daddy and mummy gave me the go-ahead to use it for driving! It's plenty of moolah..I shall repay her every single penny next time. Even though she said that all I need to repay her is by driving her around in future. Hahaha. Their family's the sweetest..always helping us out in times of need and even when we don't need anything..I heart them all! Thank you for helping us to lighten our load. =)

Think I shall still learn private after all..even though ah ee's given me enough to learn at a driving sch. I'm in no hurry to learn driving actually; daddy's car is an off-peak car, not like I can drive it around anytime I like too. It's just gonna be useful to know how to drive. =) And by taking private lessons, I can save the bulk of the money for emergency use! Kill two birds with one stone. Yay. =)

Okay I'm supposed to be studying and not slacking..exams are in less than 2 weeks! I'm a goner. ='(

And my dear sick buddy, please take care of yourself and get well soon! It's yucksy to try studying when you're unwell. Don't think too much k! Stay happy and positive! I shall need to meet you for study sessions as much as possible haha. I need the motivation! Anyway, drink plenty of water and please slp more!!

I am going to hit the books now. I have to. Haha. Just hope that my attention span won't wander off after 5 minutes.

me
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