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Thursday, January 25, 2007

2:49 AM

Today has been good, bad, delightful, teary, surprise, stoniness all rolled into one.

I'm exhausted.

Woke up with disgustingly puffy eyes after crying myself to sleep last night. Bad case of emo which resulted in a torrential flood. Only to regret after waking up in the morning and seeing a freak stare back from the mirror. Shudders.

Anyway, first half of the day was uneventful, to the point of being sucky. 2 back-to-back lectures are a bad way to kickstart any day. And I so should NOT have emailed the prof my introduction last night. He called my name in lecture! So I just diam diam and thank god no one gave me away. Hahaha.

Had proj meeting after that in fal..spent like close to 3hours searching for commercials online. Nightmare! My already tired eyes felt like they were going to drop out at the end of it. Gosh.

Back in hall was when things started to take a turn for the better. =)

Was pleasantly surprised when junhan,mabel,tsemin,daniel and edmund appeared at my door with a present for me! And a birthday song too! Really touched that they remembered my bday was coming and took the effort to get me a gift..a really sweet gift by the way! And coming all the way down to my room to surprise me..edmund even skipped lesson to do that. Anyways, they gave me this really pretty precious moments musical jewellery box! And also a necklace and earrings..cloven has good taste! I love the gifts..no matter what they may be. Haha. It's really the thought that counts..I've never really been very close to the rest of them, yet they did this for me..thanks so much guys. It really brightened up my dreary day and touched my heart.. =)

Rushed off after that to meet my ij babes for dinner at CA..I shall not go into the donut queue incident haha. Suffice to say, they queued almost 2hours and gave up in the end. In case anyone's wondering, the shop in question is Donut Factory at raffles city. Haven't tried it, but I think they should find ways to improve efficiency and customer service. I'll queue another day if I feel like it. Haha.

Anyway, we had dinner at CA! Yummy! I ate this dish called "cheese the chicken". Pretty lame name, but the dish is yumilicious! Haha. Took pics! But all in the cameras of the rest of the girls. They gave me Anna Sui's Secret Wish! Super gorgeous packaging and bottle and scent! And this absolutely beautiful personalised card that's like a photo collage thingy..I was speechless, really. It just brings back so much memories..from sec sch days till now..It's been close to 10 years of friendship with most of them, and more than 10 for some..I hope this friendship can withstand much much more. It's already withstood so much and we've survived thus far..it's about time I started to take on a more active role instead of being so distant too. These are the friends I want to stick with through life.. =) Thanks dears for the wonderful celebration. I had the bestest time ever. *huggs

Back in hall, things got abit downhill with a phone conversation. But it ended pretty okay, thank goodness. I dun wanna dwell upon it or go into details..will think things through when I'm more awake and energetic. Need to slp soon..uber late already! Tmr still must finish up tutorials and whatnot so that I can have a worry-free weekend and play my fill as a way to celebrate my 21st..

I guess in some ways I do regret not organising a major party and all..but receiving surprises, meeting up with dear friends and fmly separately are enough. I'm happy. =)

Goodnight to all! And thanks to all who've made my day so beautiful today. *huggs

To you, my darling..I'll continue to try k? It's a learning process..we both need to learn together, hand in hand. It takes 2 hands to clap, and 2 hearts to walk down the path together. I can't do it alone; I need you by my side. Pls don't give up on anything, lose hope or just leave everything to fate..I'll make things better for you, as best as I can. Huggs.

me
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2:49 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

9:40 PM

I am super full!

Had macs for dinner..damn sinful la! Just imagining all the calories and fats and salt going into my body system is nightmarish enough. But I haven't eaten it since I fell sick..and I'm damn sick of eating canteen A food. Which left me with macs. Haha.

Just sent an email to my 213 prof telling him about myself! He asked us to send like a paragraph on ourselves..and I think I typed plenty of paragraphs. Longwinded-ness! Lol. Typing that email was like blogging mans. Once I start typing, it gets pretty addictive. Poor prof will just have to read through all my ramblings. =p

I have, like, tons of work to do but I am in no mood! Today's 215 case presentation was absolutely killer..the Q&A session was like a free-for-all la! For the rest of the class, that is. While the 5 of us stood infront fielding question after question. Think they shot at us close to 20 questions! Madness can! And they super no mercy lor, some of them. No class spirit! Wanna ask question can go ahead..but at least adopt a nicer tone, less agressiveness mah..we're all there to learn together and help each other what. Not as if shooting us down like crazy will make you look any better. Bahh. It got so bad that the prof was even saying how our group was putting on a brave front and all..pi la! What brave front! I think we answered pretty okay leh! It's a marketing channels class for goodness sake, not marketing strategy! Their questions were like all aimed at long term strategising and blah. Gawd.

But at least it's over..can slack a little bit for this week! Before it's back to hell and nightmare again. I think I have at least 1 project/presentation every week mans. Maybe even 2 or more at times. Such is the life of a marketing student. But I can't complain cos' I chose this route myself. And barely 15mins ago I was just typing in the email to my prof something about not regretting having chosen marketing. Muahahaha.

Meeting my ij babes tmr for dinner! Yay..I'm finally free to join them! Like everytime also I cannot make it..feel damn bad. No idea yet where will we be going though. Just please don't go to crystal jade! I've eaten it twice in the past week. Eeks. Haha.

My birthday is coming! Excited mans. Athough not a huge celebration or what, getting tgt with family and friends separately is good enough! I wanna meet up with more friends! I think I should make layleng and cor go out too then the 3 of us celebrate our bdays together! The 3 january babies who hit legal age within a few weeks of one another. Sounds like fun! Hahaha.

Em just came back and told me she got coerced into going zouk tonight. Mambo night! Means I'll be hall-alone till she decides to come back. Em you have 8.30am class tmr! Spoiler. Haha.

I think I'm just blogging nonsense cos' I have like a ton of readings and all sitting in front of me, but I just refuse to look at them. Blogging is way more fun and entertaining and..waste of time. Smack me somebody. Haha. I just feel damn slack la! Only 2 lecs tmr then the school week is over! The dangers of having friday off. Oops. Haha.

Okay I shall get back to reading..sian! And now em is trying to persuade me to go mambo with her. Hahaha. I have 8.30 class tmr too! So cannot! Lol.

Weekend hurry up come already!

me
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9:40 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Monday, January 22, 2007

2:00 AM

I feel like I haven't blogged in a thousand years! Haha.

So much has happened..a new year has come, the old year gone. I didn't make any new year resolutions as usual. Cos' I don't keep to fulfilling them. Lol.

Start of new sch term..only the 2nd week and already I'm uber stressed! Though on the outside, I don't seem like it. Sharyn thinks I'm damn slack or sth. Hahaha. Like not worried about presentations and homework. Super not true la! She doesn't know me well enough yet. =p

And Sojourn is over! I can't say if I feel happy or sad, but definitely relieved that it ended at the right time..just when projects are piling up and I'm having time shortage! Imagine if I had to throw in pracs 3 times a week. Thank goodness for the week-long break from band.

It was a pretty good concert though..not the best, but I think we all put in hard work. So I'm pretty happy with the way things turned out. Although I'm supposed to chair sojourn, I don't feel like I did. Feel rather bad that ade was still the one doing most of the heavy-duty stuffs but well..I guess my committment has dipped a fair bit. I'm no longer the novice freshie of last year, new to comm and all that..I'm a more jaded senior now, less willing to give my all, more selfish and uncompromising..sorry for all the troubles and inconveniences caused..this current comm is not bad, but I just don't feel that I belong. I'll still do my part as long as I'm needed I guess...but that's where it'll all end. The freshies can bond together as a bunch, like I did once upon a time..I'm content with the memories of my freshie year in band. I guess I don't like change..I wish everyone can stay on like in the past..but we all have to move on. Memories are enough..

Anyway, wistfulness aside, I feel rather accomplished today! Or rather, tonight. Hahaha. Spent uber long doing accounting tutorial with peishan..I don't like accounting! Urgh. Why why why must a marketing student study accounting TWO...bahh. It's torture mans. If only I can drop it or S/U it. Pui. But at least we completed tmr's tut! Yay. Haha. But after spending close to 3 hours on it, not to mention the many many hours clocked for 215 today, I have no more energy left to do 214. Tmr tmr..I shall do before tut. I hope. Haha.

This sem is super xiong..hope it wasn't a wrong choice to take an elective in addition to 4 rather tough cores. Sighh. At least effec comm seems fun..and jenny is really nice! She cracks me up haha. I like her! =)

Must study hard this sem..ps was telling me she thinks we have at least 10 projects this sem alone..oh mans..the downside of specialising in marketing. It's presentations, projects and assignments galore..haiyo. Wish one day got more than 24 hrs. >_<

All I ask is to be able to play my fill this week..enjoy my bday fmly chalet this weekend, have fun on my 21st before I get started on real work..slogging my socks off.

Acty it's quite ironic how I've been thinking for months how I wanna celebrate my 21st. I mean, many many pple throw a huge celebration and invite tons of pple and all...but somehow, now that it's almost here, I have no desire to do such a thing. Maybe cos' I can't think of how many pple whom I invite will go..and also cos' I'd rather have a separate gathering with separate groups of friends. I don't deny I've drifted plenty from my various cliques throughout the years..through all fault of mine and no fault of theirs. I'm really touched that despite all these, they have never forgotten me..asking what I want for my bday, how I wanna celebrate and all..esp my dearest IJ babes..thanks so much my dears, for remembering me even though I've drifted much from the clique. We will go out and celebrate tgt k! And for me to make it up to bern for missing your 21st party cos' of sojourn..

And of course, I really wanna meet up with my 29ners too..similarly, I may not be as close to you all as we used to be, maybe never even that close to some of you throughout, but I've always treated each and everyone of you as a friend close to my heart, special in more ways than one. I really hope that the sort of drift/misunderstanding will be resolved soon..sometimes, it takes trials to test the strength of a friendship. My dears..let's tide through this time tgt k? Everything can be ironed out if we set our hearts to it..hope that if I request for a gathering, you all won't reject me..and I hope that our combined friendship can withstand the test of time, distance and obstacles..

Anyway, to pple who have been asking me what I want for my bday, it doesn't matter to me. Really. Haha. Although I have a wishlist at the side of my blog, and I happen to know that my birks wish is going to be fulfilled (lol!), it's really just a whim thingy la..my demands can be pretty extravagant, just to make myself feel happy knowing that a part of me is materialistic. Okay that's stupid but whatever. Hahaha. Bday wishes are good enough..presents are just material stuffs. If I could really have the one thing I want, that's for everyone to be happy! I believe that's what everyone else would want too..haha.

Okay..I've typed an uber long post. Must be all the accummulated stuffs from not blogging since xmas. Hahaha. And it's late! I have proj meeting in the morning. Bahh. Wait awhile more then must go sleep liao..tkkaire everyone! *huggs.

me
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2:00 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

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