Friday, March 03, 2006
6:02 PM
My head is killing me. Urgh.

Guess it must be due to the obnoxiously hot weather and late nights. Sighh. Suffering a week of headaches isn't exactly top on my list of fav things..pui.

Weekend's here again..dunno what I should do. First time in my life I completed my biz law tutorial before friday ends. But I just can't muster up the motivation to go on further and so econs. I'm like sooo way behind, it's freaking me out. For now, though, my headache is enough to occupy my thoughts and keep me zombified.

Why is the proposal never okay. I bet it's a contributing factor to my headache too. I look at it and I feel like deleting it from my laptop, feel like shredding the hardcopy. Sighh. Thank goodness I'm not going for SO concert or the hall 4 bash later at chinablack. Doubt I'd survive the night, what more with alcohol. I'll just K.O. on the spot.

Suddenly miss all things that used to bring me comfort through familiarity..I miss playing the piano. Haven't played for a very very long time..I miss pressing down on the black and white keys, hearing the tinkle of melody and beautiful music filling the entire room..letting my fingers come alive and running over the keys. Not that I'd be able to do that now, or that I ever played exceptionally well. Still, I miss it. Music has always been able to soothe me and relieve me of nasty moods. Especially playing the piano...guess I should be grateful to my parents for signing me up for piano lessons when I was very young. If not, music wouldn't have been such an impt part of my life..pity I didn't develop much further interest in piano. Ah well.

I miss my daddy and mummy. I miss home. I wanna go home..tmr tmr. I can finally go home, see my family, eat with them, sleep on my comfy bed again..just like how it has always been the past 20years. At least, till I moved to hall. I wanna talk to my daddy so badly. Dunno what I wanna talk about, but just talk. I miss my parents la. Bad case of homesickness. =( Only they can really make me feel loved and protected..only they truly love me for who I am and want the best for me in everything..okay I dunno what mood am I in now..maybe cos' I haven't seen them for so long. Or maybe cos' everytime I feel sick, daddy and mummy will be the ones worrying over me and attending to my every need..sometimes I wish I didn't hafta grow up.

I wanna be a little girl again.. =(

me
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6:02 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Wednesday, March 01, 2006
4:09 AM
Just realised I haven't blogged for sometime. Not that I didn't want to...I just didn't know what to blog about.

Mid term break's over, and it's nearly the end of yet another school week..the past few days have been hectic and absolute hell. Last minute me (as usual) ended up rushing out my biz law and ob assignments..fretting over what to present for knowledge sharing..trying to pia for IT test w/o success (I did very badly in the end)..finally it's thu and I can have a break. A short break. Tmr's my off day but it's gonna be nth but biz mag proposals to settle. And maybe complete my biz law tutorial for next week so that I can spend more time studying econs. Like, at last. Haha.

Overslept today and got into this mad rush. I can never wake up nowadays. And even if my handphone sms tone rings (which is super long btw), I cannot hear it. Damn scary. Never used to have this prob! Urgh. Anw, had skype for IT lab today; fun! Although it was barely 10mins, I liked it better than doing excel and access assignments. Haha. Had to rush to LT for exxon lunchtime perf cos' I left class late and I had to pia from south spine all the way to north spine. While lugging along my instru case. Wah piang.This is one of those times when it feels about 10kg. Rushing around on a sweltering hot day with an instru case in hand is sooo not what I like. Pui.

The perf was like sai la. Damn disgusting. I mean, for our item. Dunno why, even rehearsal was better. Just felt like I couldn't play out. Didn't hit about a million notes and came in wrong rythm. In short, just plain horrible. Probably the worst perf I've ever put up. *cringe

Went for lunch with ade and zb at the new can16 after the disastrous perf..too hot a day to eat at non-aircon canteens. Haha. Food alright la. Near my hall and got aircon, can consider walking over in future. Lol. Went lib to do some work after that so that yw would have some of us for company..didn't get much done. Read my genes notes without really understanding what was going on, then read my bizlaw notes again and did abit of the tut. Fell aslp cos' I couldn't stand the headache. And I was really tired. Oh man, I get headaches like everyday now. Sth's wrong. Urgh.

Tried somemore new pieces at band..attendance gettting pretty shitty. Taking the attendance is so easy; I just put alot of '0' and very few '1'. Wonder how long will this continue...wonder who will play for concert too. Hai.

So late liao and I'm still not slping. Why why why. What more I have a headache, thought I'd K.O soon after supper. Apparently not. Nvm, shall wake up ridiculously late tmr morning. Haha.

Headache pls go away, you've been torturing me for 2days straight now. I refuse to take panadol. Don't like. Sighh.

I wish I can say that I have total control of my life. But sadly, I don't. Some things are beyond my control. I make mistakes, plenty of them, all the time. I just hope I didn't make a 2nd mistake right after the 1st this time. I really hope my decision was for the better. I let my heart rule my head too much..I'm sorry for that. Some things are meant to be..if they are, they will eventually. If they're not...

Let's just leave it at that.

me
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4:09 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]