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Saturday, January 21, 2006

5:11 AM

Sojourn 2006 is finally over!

It's like super duper late now and I have this persistent headache that's been bugging me since the end of the concert, but I wanna blog all my thoughts and feelings down now cos' I'm afraid that I wun be in the mood to do so after I wake up...haha.

My day started out pretty badly actually. Burnt a hole in my concert skirt when ironing it for the first time using the hall's iron. Had to chiong down to tpy in a cab to buy another skirt then cab again to vch. And along the way there was this traffic jam. Really thought it wasn't my day sia. All the not so good things happening at the same time.

Anw, rehearsal was not bad, the mood was there and everything. I was pretty excited about the concert, even if I may not have shown it. After all, it's sth we've been working hard towards, how not to feel anything about it? Haha.

It was abit of a mad rush with photo-taking and all, rushing to eat dinner and change..we girls fretting over our hair and little minute details..so typical. Haha. Part of what makes the preparation fun. Lol. Concert started late cos' we had to wait for GOH..as a result we ended late.

The gifts I prepared for my section..I hope they like it. It's not easy making sth for 9 guys which they will appreciate. But I believe that my section guys are appreciative of my efforts. They'd better be. Lol. I've been having so little sleep worrying over how to complete the gifts on time! In fact, I only finished them this morning after I woke up. Haha.

Anw..they surprised me with a bouquet of sunflowers! I was really, really surprised when jinfa brought out this beautiful bouquet and presented it to me. Haha. So sweet of them! I guess that's the advantage of being the only girl in a section with so many guys. Haha. But seriously, that gesture really touched me. It's the most beautiful bouquet of sunflowers I've ever gotten. The only sunflower bouquet acty. Haha. Thanks so much guys, for bothering to find out from zhibin and serena what are my favourite flowers. =)

The concert itself..first half was not bad. In fact, the whole concert overall was pretty good. Everyone played well, and we put up a great performance! Although I felt that our 2nd half sounded visibly more tired and less energetic, it was nevertheless a wonderful concert. =)

I shan't go into details of the concert itself..maybe another time. The purpose of this entry is actually to thank pple too. Haha.

The past few months of preparing for sojourn have evoked many many kinds of feelings in me. From frustration to excitement, disappoinment to hope. Being the only girl in my section, what more the sl, I felt it was my duty to bond the section together. Just that I didn't know how to go about doing it. If there were other girls in the section, it might have been easier. But still, I'd like to think that our section gets along well, even if we're not really close. The 3 guestplayers have also helped alot alot..not only in terms of making the whole section sound better. I think we've all enjoyed having them around..individually they're fun pple to hang out with as well. It's such a pity that they'll be leaving after tonight..I've really started to treat everyone as a full section. 10 pple every prac..a number I've gotten used to. Smsing 9 of them before every prac to remind them of the time. Suddenly it's gonna be 6 pple..I feel like sth's missing somehow. I guess in a way I've gotten dependent on them..but the truth is, I feel that without anyone of the 10 of us, we wouldn't be a complete section..

I doubt any of them will read this, but still, I'd like to say a big thank you. Not only to the main section members, but also esp. to mervin, benji and lookit. For helping us out so much..even when they were very tired or very busy, they'd rush down for prac. They've brought much fun and laughter to our section..added life and a certain driving force to it. Hope they will come back and play for us..whether for fun or for concerts. To me, they will always be part of the ntusb trumpet section. =)

I think the whole band did a wonderful job..but I think the comm was really amazing. Hey guys, we pulled off sojourn successfully..like what adeline said, it's a cause for celebration! You pple have been wonderful to work with, and I'm so glad that amongst ourselves, we've also gotten closer outside of band and comm. The bond within this comm is sth I'll never find elsewhere. Thanks so much for making the whole journey so far especially fun and memorable for me. You pple are the best comm I'll ever be in. Everyone's been super busy due to sojourn, and now that it's over, we deserve a short break. Haha. We've really done well, is what I feel. Thanks for the great cooperation among all of us, for the bond we share, for our unity and the fun and laughter that's prevalent. I love you guys, ntusb exco 05/06. =)

Super super late liao..not too sure if I've typed all that I wanted. But for now, I can't think of anything else. And I really need sleep. Haha. In short, sojourn 2006 has been a wonderful experience and sth I treasure. Like what gen said in a note to me, "sojourn through my project would not have been if not for you". Likewise, sojourn through this whole concert would not have been if not for the entire ntusb, mr oura, players, comm members, guestplayers, in short, everyone! Hopefully future sojourns will be equally, if not more, successful. =)

me
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5:11 AM

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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

11:20 AM

Just kill me off once and for all. Dun make me die every month.. =(

That's my current msn nick. Sighh.

I hate cramps!!!

Typing that has become all too familiar. Every month the same thing will happen, and I'll end up going through absolute torture for at least 2 days. Last night was bad enough, but I think today's worse. ='(

Supposed to be having IT now but I'm holed up in my room, unable to do anything but squirm in my chair. This feeling sucks. I hate going through this..hate the continuous waves of pain that hit at me without mercy..hate that every month my life comes to a standstill because I can't cope with the torture...hate that I've become immune to taking painkillers..I just hate it all!

When will it ever end..when will the pain stop coming..when can I be a normal girl who doesn't suffer from such immense pain?...

I just pray and hope now that throwing up isn't included in this month's cramps agenda. The toilet is so very far from my room...the last time I had to literally run to the toilet. Almost threw up along the corridor. Sian.

If there's a good thing about this at all, it has to be that getting it now is better than suffering on concert day. If that really happened..well..let's not think about it.

Dunno if I should go for iglobal. Serena offered to take my place, thanks dear, but I dunno how to pass the stuffs to her. Already 11plus..its in 2hrs..I just took panadol, and I doubt it's going to work a miracle anytime soon. I also dunno why I still take it, seeing how it's lost effect on me. I guess it's a psychological thing, to try and make myself feel better by lying to myself that the panadol is gonna chase the pain away.

What a big fat lie.

Wake up geri. *snap

me
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

6:03 PM

I'm so sad now! =(

Went for econs lec just now..had ob tutorial before that so I brought my textbook along. Carried it as my bag had no space for it. Then I placed it under my chair during lec cos' nowhere else to put..told sherlyn to remind me to take it before leaving mlt. And we both forgot! Wasn't until I got to can b that I realised I'd left my book behind. So I went back to get it...but it was nowhere to be found! My heart really dropped when I searched the whole mlt but couldn't find it. All in a space of 10mins and it was gone! The worst part is, it's a brand new book which I just bought yesterday. 40 over bucks gone just liddat. I dunno whether to kick myself or curse the person who took it.

Sighh.

All I can hope for now is that a kind soul picked it up and returned it to nbs office. Till now, the office hasn't called me with good news yet. *crosses fingers

Anw..feel quite uncomfy now. Can feel cramps coming. Hai. Hope it doesn't come on concert day...pls dun..I will just literally die. >_<

Yesterday was a super hectic day...which left me very tired at the end of it. Met zb after my classes to go sao and get the iglobal stuffs..had lunch then met adeline, who drove us to newater plant to collect the newater bottles. Ended up with 14cartons=168 bottles. Doubt the band can finish it. Anw, I skipped biz law lec ytd (pls shoot me) to join the advance party for moving instruments to nanyang audi. Quite few pple turned up..we literally had to slog to get everything into the van and lorry. Super tiring! The guys really did alot of work though. Strong pple. Haha.

Was quite a big rush cos' we still had to unload at nanyang audi. Rushed here and there, getting jinfa's trumpet, buying dinner for the advance party pple and all that..sat down for combine after adeline tuned them and everything. Guess we do sound slightly better in the audi, cos' can hear our mistakes more clearly now..basically, the sound is clearer. I prefer it, definitely. Just hope we'll sound good at vch on sat.

My arms were literally aching after I got back to hall last night. Luckily today better liao. But I guess I'd rather have them ache than to lose my textbook. Sighh.

Headache coming again. Sian. I'm getting headaches everyday now. Wonder why. Hopefully it's the weather and nothing else.

Got another hour plus to wait before meeting zb and serena for dinner. Maybe I'll take a short nap..enough to get rid of my headache.

I want my ob textbook back. =(

me
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