Wednesday, January 04, 2006
4:04 AM
2005 now belongs to the past, and I started off 2006 with a bang at the esplanade...have I ever mentioned how much I love fireworks? Seeing beautiful colours explode in the night sky is something that makes me happy...just like how lightsticks can always brighten up my mood. Thanks for that pretty lightstick serena! It really completed a wonderful countdown...having a good friend bring me something she knew I wanted. *muacks

I saw him walking with his gf outside esplanade mall, and since then, I've been recalling our past..at least the hurt seems to have been erased. It's just that the memories will never be forgotten...

Anw, unhappy stuffs aside...sch has started once again, and this first week isn't turning out to be very fantastic despite the fact that there aren't tutorials. It's only been the 2nd day of sch, and already I've skipped biz law lecture today to accompany zb and serena to loyang sec to borrow eupho mute and pass them the publicity kit. And after much deliberation, I've decided to play for lunchtime concert on fri, but that will mean skipping ob lecture and going late for my comm mgmt tutorial. Sighh. What a way to start the academic year huh. So much for my resolutions to stop skipping lessons and to study hard. I'm not even turning up for the first lessons. All I've attended so far is econs lec ytd. That was pretty boring acty. I almost fell aslp. >_<

Came back from band really late today...about 2plus close to 3am. I dunno what to say, except that the past few pracs have seen me ending band in a depressed state. I finally had a full section today, plus mavis, who'll be playing for lunchtime. 11 trumpeters did improve the overall volume and hopefully sound, but I could tell that we were not balanced. Out of tune too...sighh. So much to be done in so little time. And the section..it's hard to convey to them my frustration. It seems like they just come for prac, then go home and think nothing of it until the next prac comes around again. I really dunno what to do about them. Why is it that we sound so horrible as a section? I never used to have this problem back in ij and tj. I mean, when we sounded off and unbalanced, we somehow all knew it and would try to rectify the problem by listening more. Here, it seems to me that everyone is minding their own business. And no one is really giving any comments abt how we shd all sound like. And I'm not really in a position to say anything oso, since my musical abilities are nothing to boast of.

Forget it la. I've already spent the last few hours being gloomy over that. Thanks laoba for sitting with me after prac and trying to make me feel better..for giving me advice on how to handle the section and how to improve my playing...seems like only he will do that for me. I miss those days in tj when we would play together and have so much fun. I haven't enjoyed combine so much since leaving tj. Since mavis quit ntusb. Just now when me, her and laoba were seated tgther, I felt really relaxed and happy. The back-at-tjband feeling. That I've never felt with the rest of the section here in ntu. Anw..I miss talking to my laoba. Hall sucks for this reason. I can't call him and he can't call me...hai. Even if I wanna confide in him, it's so hard. I feel so bad for having contacted him so much lesser sinwhen ce leaving tj...I know you wanna talk to me, laoba, and I know I disappointed you the time I finally called you, but all I did was to ask you to guestplay for ntusb. But dun worry, you'll always be my dearest laoba. =)

Thanks serena dear for asking abt me just now...and for giving me a back massage to help me relax. Love you loads girl, I'm so glad I found a friend in you, someone I can confide in and who'll always be there no matter what. *huggs

It's really late now, and I dun wanna think of stuffs that make me sad anymore. If not, I'll just not be able to get to slp. For this reason, I've been getting very little slp lately. It takes me quite awhile to get my eyes to close and for me fall into slumber. My mind is just so full of stuffs that bother me. Alot. Anw..I'm trying not to think liao. Shall just go and collect my laundry then hopefully I can get myself in dreamland before 5am.

me
scribbled at
4:04 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]