Saturday, September 03, 2005
11:45 PM
Sometimes I wonder if I'm too idealistic. Living in my own world where everything happens the way I want it to. Where people behave the way I want them to. Where everything is just perfect.

Then when I look at my surroundings, I know that I'm definitely living in the real world. Where so many things go so wrong.

I learnt alot in the past 2-3years. I had to recall most of it ytd. Had to remind myself, just as I reminded others, that goodbyes are inevitable.

Okay, let me organise my thoughts first. I don't know what I'm typing.

I can't list the whole situation out. I can't detail everything, pour everything out here.

All I can say is, I'm really very tired. Both physically and mentally. I wanna just collapse somewhere and sleep and sleep, not caring what goes on around me anymore. I'm that exhausted. With what? I dunno. And I think too much. I really think I do. Yun says so too. She kept telling me tdy not to think so much. I'll try, jiemei, promise.

Dun wanna blog anymore. What's the point if I can't let everything out. Just get it off my mind.

I need sleep.

me
scribbled at
11:45 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]