Wednesday, January 05, 2005
11:35 PM
Just thought I'd spend a few minutes blogging abt my first tuition lesson before going to slp...heh.

It wasn't too bad. Gotta admit I was kind of nervous before that. I mean, I didn't know what to expect mah. But Alexis turned out to be a really nice girl. Hahas. Though at some parts it got abit awkward cos' I went there pretty much unprepared...tried my best to crap some lit stuff out, but all the while I was thinking that 2hrs is really too long to spend on a single lit session. Heh. Turns out that Alexis had no idea how long each lesson ought to be. Apparently the agency decided for us. So aniwaes, we came to a mutual agreement that I should tutor her 1 and a half hrs each week. Of cos', this also means that I get a lower pay. Now 120 bucks for 6 hrs instead of 170 bucks for 8 hrs. Numerically, I appear to be on the 'losing' end, but the funny thing is, I dun really mind. Not even when I really need the money. I guess for a first student it's okay lah. Heh. Seeing how I'm not experienced and all that...but aniwaes she's quite a good lit student. The best in her class, apparently. Thankfully I could understand what her probs were. Hahas. Quite the usual kind which I faced back in sec sch...and even in TJ lor. Well, now I have a week to read Twelfth Night before going back to tuition her again. Heh. And yays! We worked out a pretty nice lesson plan for each week. I guess tutoring Alexis isn't gonna be as bad as I thought. =]

Okays, my few mins is up, gotta go zzz liao! I'm pretty shagged acty. Heh. Wokes early today though I slept late late last night. And I went for breakfast with Daddy! I'm glad I did. I miss spending quality time with my dear Daddy. Heh. Hope to have more of these in future. =] Okays, I'm going to catch some shut eye le! Nites everyone!

me
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11:35 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Tuesday, January 04, 2005
12:24 AM
I finally got a job! Okays, what I'm gonna say next is kind of anti-climax. I didn't get a stable job, like those 9 to 5 kind...what I meant was, I got a job as a tuition teacher. Hahas.

Went down to this tuition agency to register as a tutor today. Omg, I had to pay them 8 bucks to register can. I'm even more broke now. Sigh. So aniwaes, while the guy in charge was sort of interviewing me, he was looking through my o-level cert and TJ prelim results...then he suddenly asked if I wanted to teach Lit. Apparently he saw the A1 I got for o-level lit...and there was this student on his list who wanted lit tuition.

To cut a long story short, after calling here and there, I got the assignment. First lesson was supposed to be tonight, but I refused cos' I have zero idea regarding the lit texts my student is doing can. Shakespeare's Twelfth Night and Susan Hill's I Am The King of the Castle. Oh man. And the lesson is tml night. So I have approximately less than 24hrs to study the two texts which I've never read a single sentence of before in my life. Shit.

After accepting the assignment, I started wondering if I'm being stupid. For one thing, my student is a Sec 4. Meaning o-levels this year. And she's a pure lit student. Shit shit shit. The more I think about it, the more dead I feel. How to teach lit???!!! Argh.

I'm not sure if the pay is fantastic...but I get 170 bucks a month. Tutor her once a week, each time for 2 hrs. So I guess it works out to about 20 bucks per hour or so. The bad part is, I gotta give the agency 50% of my pay for the first month. Thank goodness I get to keep everything fromt he 2nd month onwards. Or I'd just quit man. Heh.

Well...it's past midnight liao, and guess what I'm doing? Surfing the net for info on the 2 lit texts. Man. So no life. I can't believe I'm studying 2 lit texts from scratch when I've just finished a-levels barely 2 mths ago. Sigh. But I can't possibly go there and tutor with a blank mind tml right. =(

Okays, I shall get back to my sad task before going to slp. Nites pple!

me
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12:24 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Monday, January 03, 2005
1:18 PM
I foresee that this is gonna be a looooong entry. Hahas.

Wokes today to the sound of rain. Been raining nonstop the past few days, weather is so cold! Should be quite shuang to sleep in, but I've been waking earlier and earlier. In the past, this would happen whenever sch reopened..I'd 'train' to wake earlier so I wouldn't oversleep on the first day of sch. Speaking of which, sch reopens today...but not for pple like me. It's so funny, how I'd been so looking forward to the 6 mth long break after the A's, but when it's finally here...I miss sch.

Okays, I find it abit hard to believe I just said that, but really, I do miss going to sch. Being a student, catching some shut-eye in boring lectures, going for tutorials, walking opposite to eat lunch, having fun during band pracs....and everything else. I just miss it all. Sigh.

Spent a long time getting to sleep last night. Somehow, my brain was flooded with memories from my 2 years in TJ...

First time stepping into TJ to play with the band for Fiesta 2002. A totally new experience, being exposed to good players and making new friends...feeling the section unity among the few of us, even though we knew that we might not remain together when JC officially starts. I still remember waiting anxiously for 1st three months posting results...recalling how my heart sank when I got posted to ACJC. Calling up my jiemei, only to find out that she didn't get posted to TJ either. Then came the flurry of appeals. Me the odd-one-out in ACJC, going there to appeal out while tons of other students were hoping for a place there. One of them must have gotten my place.

I was so happy when I appealed successfully to TJ. Even happier when my jiemei got accepted too. Cos' it meant that we'd be together for the next 3 mths at least. =] I didn't expect to make such a firm friend even before I entered TJ. But I'm glad I did. -smiles- Orientation was a fun affair...still rmb all the games we played, cheering till our voices went hoarse...making new friends and learning abt TJ...I love my 1st 3 mths. Love the then 2903. It was so fun back then, where the rest taught me how to play dai dee and bridge and blah. All the crapping and laughing...I miss all of it. Even though we eventually had to split.

After 1st 3 mths, I didn't feel the same excitement upon being posted back to TJ. Somehow, it was dulled. probably because I knew that I'd be separated from the classmates I'd come to love, whose comapny I enjoyed. I still recall the heartwrenching moment when Pris couldn't appeal back to TJ...I was hoping that the same miracle which happened for us before 1st 3 mths would happen again...but it didn't. So, we were eventually separated by our schs. But I'm glad that our friendship remains strong as ever. Maybe even closer. =]

After 1st 3 mths...things didn't seem so fun anymore. I got bored, and 2nd Orientation was a disaster. I mean, compared to the 1st one lah. Got to know the new 2903...of which only a few of us were from the original 29. At the beginning, I still remember how pessimistic I felt abt this new class. I kept trying to compare them to the old 29...and finding many things lacking. Somehow, I just couldn't envision the same kind of fun I'd shared with the old 29. Shared these feelings with old 29-ners like Joel...but we realised that it wasn't fair to compare the 2. So I tried to accept my new class, and guess what? My attempt was successful. =]

I guess I really hafta thank 29 for so many things. Although I admit that as a class, we aren't wholly united, at least we all get along. The almost 2 years I spent with all of you...I learnt many things. Many of which will stay with me for life. The ups and downs I encountered in friendships all served to strengthen the bond among us. In a way I'm glad that the 'downers' happened. Cos' if they didn't, I might still not have matured much in my thinking. Thanks so much to my 29 clique whom I may have come to take for granted sometime along the way..you pple have really taught me so much abt the value of friendship. I love you guys, and I hope we'll always be friends. I'm gonna miss all of you so much...

Joan- The crazy one in our group who can be oh-so-serious too. =p Throughout these 2 years, you've really opened my eyes to so many things. Let me view things from a different perspective. I'm gonna miss squeezing your fats (gasp!) and listening to you whine abt your fats. Lol. One moment saying how you dun care even if you become totally fat, the next moment insisting that we all share fats. Hahas. Just rmb I'm always here to catch your heart k. Who ask you to be my father-cum-bf. Incest!!! Lol. But yes, for now, you better rmb I'm your darling gf so dun you dare go fooling around! -looks at Xtina- =p

Jeannie- The sweetie in our clique, and also my mummy! =] Seeing you change from the toot toot and overly guai looking girl to the da mei nu now who has so many suitors...wahaha! All the times you've listened to me complain abt this-and-that...all our shopping trips and attempts not to spend money...me trying to get you fat by dragging you along to eat...I'm gonna miss all of that. And you.

Christina- The crazy woman!!! I'm so glad you joined us, even if a year late. I feel like I've known you forever. Hahas. And you're the one with the similar taste as me!!! Phelps, Sly, pastamania, crystal jade...plus so many more! =p You better survive your work stint yar...I still wanna go out with you and the rest to gossip, bitch, haf fun! Rmb starbucks? =]

Pei Shan- The super chio one in the group! Hahas. Pls dun disappoint us, dearie. Go and sign up for Miss S'pore Universe! If you dun win, I'll...I'll...erm..I'll think of sth to do again. =p Hey..I think I learnt the most from you. Was really happy to receive your xmas card and read what you wrote...and yes, friends forever! Heh. I'm gonna miss hanging out with you..seeing you get excited over cute guys and whatever which catches your attention..marvel at how super you are when it comes to looking out for sales and cheap stuff...lol! And your smile and laughter. I think anyone can drown in it. =]

Melody- The cute and super thick skinned girl who will always look so small girl! =p Dun think Melfy is small sized, she's the loudest can. Or one of. Lol! I love to go out with you! And talking to you. It's never boring. Hahas. And lucky you, with the perfect bf! I bet you two are gonna get married. We all bet that. Hahas. Thanks for all the fun times dearie..contributing to the never-ending laughter we all share... =]

I'm gonna miss everyone so much. By saying this, I dun mean that we'll be separated. Hell, no! Hahas. But by leaving TJ, it's like a chapter of my life closed. No matter how often I've complained about the sch, the teachers, the system and so on...I guess a part of me will always be a tjcian at heart. There are so many things I've experinced in my 2 years there...so many friends I've made...I dun hate the sch or the place lah. I just can't bring myself to. In fact, crazy as it sounds, I think I'm gonna miss the canteen food, the yucky green sch uniform which I've come to love, and even singing the sch song. And I'm definitely gonna miss the band. My band mates...my seniors, juniors...my section.

I've spent so much time on band in JC, yet I've never regretted a single second of it. The Prelude concerts..Fiesta..Wasbe..band camps and etc...I've loved every minute of it. And I love my section! Trumpeters rock!!! The 3 'generations' in our section...William, Winnie, Mavis, Yi Jie, Siti, Loo Kit, Sheryl, Nina, Terence, Sandy...Yu Chii too! Even if she left the section...I have so so so many memories of band, of 29, of TJ...listing them out would take eons. But as long as I have them in my memories, that's enough. =]

And I guess that's how I'm gonna end. 2004 has become part of the past...2005 is gonna be a new year and a new start. While I'm reluctant to leave behind my JC life, I know we've all gotta continue with new chapters in life. I'm finding it hard to end this entry. So I'll just end abruptly. Sorry lah, Daddy wants to use the comp. If not, I'd probably sit here and type endlessly. Hahas. Okays...pple, hope you all will have a great year ahead! But while continuing a new cha[ter in your lives, must always remember the times we've spent together k...-hugs-

me
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1:18 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Sunday, January 02, 2005
12:11 AM
Just got back home not long! Waiting for my turn to shower. Hahas.

Let me update on my day...both tiring yet slack! But I had tons of fun. =]

Wokes early early in the morning to go do charity...to be precise, help out as a volunteer at SPH packing stuff for the victims of the tsunami tragedy. I kind of overslept, so ended up being the latest to meet Joan, Mel and John at Braddell mrt. So I guess there is some truth in the saying that the nearer you live, the later you tend to be. Considering that I was almost never late for sch in my 2 years in TJ. Lol.

So aniwaes, we went to volunteer to pack stuff. Clothes only, actually. I mean, there were foodstuffs and medicine and blah, but you shd have seen the amount of clothes pple donated man. They even had to put up a sign saying that there was no need for anymore donations of clothes.

In the 2 over hours we spent packing clothes into boxes and sealing them, I realised some things. While S'poreans are pretty much a generous bunch, judging by the amount of stuff they donated and the money collected so far, there is an ugly side as well. The clothes we sorted were mainly old clothes, which is expected. I mean, we can't possibly expect pple to only donate brand-new stuff right. But some pple are really ridiculous lor. To the extent of being terrible, even. For example, I found this jacket which had it's entire front cut out. And the owner actually donated it. Then another woman commented on a long-sleeved shirt which had a sleeve missing. And the shoes we received, so many were totally worn out and full of holes. If the owners of these things don't see them fit to be used, what makes them think that they are right to donate them to the needy? It's so horrible lor. Of cos', this is only the minority lah. I hope. There are also pple who donated brand new stuff or in bulk. Yeah.

Another thing which kind of irked me. There were alot alot of volunteers today, ranging from small kids to senior citizens. The children...as Joan said, I think having them there was more of a hindrance than a help. I can understand if they went with good intentions, or maybe their parents wanted to teach their kids how good it is to do charity...but in that chaotic and hot place, I doubt it's a good time to teach kids that huh. I mean, letting them handle sharp scissors and hanging around heavy boxes stacked high above our heads doesn't seem like a very safe option to me. Plus, the part which we couldn't quite stand was how the reporter and photographer were busy snapping photos of the small kids helping out. I dunno if their intentions were purely good. I'm not trying to point fingers at anyone or claim sth to be true, but it really seems like they were exploiting the situation. Or creating a false front. Like, taking pics of kids doing charity and publishing articles on how oh-so-wonderful s'poreans are. That's my guess. It's even worse if it was the parents who purposely brought their children there to be exposed to the media, to gain that 5 secs of fame or tv time. -rolls eyes- Like I was telling Joan, the real do-gooders are the pple who donate large amounts of money and choose to remain anonymous. And not those who go around telling reporters what they did and blah blah.

Mind you, I'm not saying that this is necessarily true. Although I believe that my guess is not very far off. But I think it's ineviatble that some pple are liddat. And it's quite sad, really. Doing charity isn't about getting famous or whatever, but about helping others purely out of a willingness to help because you can and you want to. Hopefully most pple realise this.

Aniwaes, enough abt that. We left after 2 hours plus to grab a bite opposite, where we saw even more piles of old clothes stacked together. When we went back after lunch, there was apparently too many volunteers, so much so that they didn't need us to help out. So we walked to tpy central, sat at starbucks and just talked the afternoon away. Heh. Plus, drinking coffee (yays!) and eating potato salad. Or, I should say, sharing the fats. -winks at Joan and Xtina- Lol.

I love the way we spent the afternooon just slacking in starbucks. It felt so good just sitting there, the 3 of us, drinking/eating and talking. Talk, talk, talk. I love the feeling of being able to talk to pple, to my frens, esp, abt anything and everything under the sun. Sharing all kinds of stories, bitching abt pple, laughing together...that feeling is so wonderful. =] That's why I always feel so uncomfy if I'm with someone whom I have nothing to say to. That kind of awkwardness sux lah. I know it's not done on purpose, but you can't deny it's not a nice feeling. So aniwaes, Joan and Xtina, thanks for letting me enjoy a great afternoon out! Love our all-girls talk and bitching session. Haven't done this in a long time le...and I miss talking lots and lots to my frens. All of us must really get together more often huh. All of us, whether my IJ clique or 2903 clique. Love you all loads. -smiles-

Went out with my family after that...shopped abit at Bugis, then went to my aunt's place. After that, proceeded to Feng Shan centre to eat dinner/supper...food there is great! I'm still feeling so full now...-burp- Lol. Hey, peeps, let's go there eat one day yar? I tell you, the food rocks lah. Hahas. Let's just pick one day and forget abt all your dieting plans. =p

Okays...I'm still waiting for my turn to shower. Hahas. Late, I know, but no choice. Heh. Tml should be a pretty slack day at home lah. Either that or out.

Ohh, and, before I forget.

Happy 2005 everyone!!! =]

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
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.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]