Saturday, December 11, 2004
1:22 AM
I'm so bored lah. Bored outta my mind. =(

Haven't been having much luck with my job finding. Fahmi was saying I'm supposed to hunt for lobangs, not wait for them to drop into my lap. Well, quite true. But I've been hunting and hunting and still no luck. Each time it seems as if I'll finally land one, I just don't get a confirmation. Hmph.

Oh wells, then again, why am I so eager to find a job? I still wanna play leh. But I need money. So too bad. Plus, quite a few of my frens got jobs liao...which means I haf lesser pple to go out with...sigh.

On a brighter note, mummy decided to pay for my prom makeover. Which means I get back my 50 bucks! Wahaha. But daddy doesn't gimme allowance during hols so no point oso hor. Hai. Back to square one...and the bottomline is, I'm still broke. Oh damn. Doesn't it spell a certain death for me?? I haf the next 6 mths to holiday!! Then my allowance how?? Oh drat drat drat. So you see, I desperately need a job. =(

I feel like such a lifeless person suddenly. Hai. But nvm lah, I have sth to occupy myself with the next few days. Gotta finish up my darling jiemei's bdae pressie!!! Which is so so so belated. Oops. Hope she'll like it man. I'm going blind just staring at the piece of fabric non-stop. Lol. In case you're wondering what I'm doing, I shan't reveal yet. Just in case she sees this. Hahas. =p

Ohh! I have a few things to look forward to next wk. Will finally be meeting Winnie dearest after such a long while! I am totally waiting for Tue man. I miss you so much! =) And hopefully I can get my cousin to go out with me! Hahas. I wanna see pics pics and more pics of your trip! =D

Okays! Before I go off, I gotta say sth. Specifically to Joan. Nvm if nice guys are all dead or never existed. We have each other! Wahaha. I love you Joanie darling!!! Muacks! =)

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Friday, December 10, 2004
9:53 PM
Why are you so nice to me??

I'm assuming you read my blog. If you don't, this entry will just go to waste then..but aniwaes, I dun expect you to reply me lah.

I think we had this 'conversation' a few days ago. I always seem to be asking you the same thing, why are you so nice to me? I dun deserve it you know. I dunno if you'll get angry (??) that I'm blogging abt this here for the whole world to see, but this is the only way I can express what I really feel w/o having to 'argue' with you. Cos' somehow, I always lose. Sigh. Hahas.

I think you're just simply too nice to all your friends lah. Including me. And you know what? It makes me feel damn bad. =( No matter what I do, I just can't seem to reciprocate all that you've done for me. You're really the kind of person who puts others before self, and I totally respect you for that. Not many pple can wholeheartedly do that nowadays.

Ohh and..like I said, I'm not deserving of your compliments lah. It's too much for me, really. You make me sound like some angel or what. That's what I feel. It's really sweet and flattering and all that but...it's not me. Not really. I'm not as nice as you think. I'm as human as the next person, and to err is human. That is the real me. One who constantly makes mistakes. Sometimes pretty grave mistakes. But I do try to learn from them. And I'm not even half as pretty as you make me out to be lah..serious! And I bet you know it too. I just dun understand why you insist that I'm wrong. Sigh. So dun always place me on a pedestal..i feel like I'm lost in another world. A world that's too good for me...

I also told you to stop giving in to me right? And I mean it in the literal way..if we go out next time, you make the decisions okay? While I'm touched to know that you're willing to go anywhere I choose, even if it's darn far from your place, I know it's not a nice thing for me to do. Plus, I've never been good at deciding. So I'd rather we split the job. =p Also, no matter how willing I am to accommodate others, there's always a limit..it's tiring to travel..man, don't I know it. 2 yrs of travelling to bedok everyday. Hahas. So I can understand how hard it is for pple to accommodate me too.

And one last thing..save your money and spend it on yourself or your gf. Dun pay for anymore stuff for me k? I still can't believe I failed to return you your money. It's alot can...Oh man. I'm serious about you not bringing your wallet out the next time. Lol. Even if I'm bankrupt I'm not gonna let you pay le. Wahaha. =p

Sigh..if only more guys were like you. No...I shd say, why can't every guy be like you?? Nice guys are practically non-existent I think. =( So my goal from now on shall be to find one. Hahas. Yeah right man..as if that's gonna be an easy task. But oh wells...I think I lost all hope the day he left. It's never been the same again lah..while I've gotten over it, a part of me still feels resentful. Or angry? -shrugs- Maybe sad too.

Okays I'm going off tangent here le. Lol. But I'm basically done with wad I wanna say lah. And wow, it feels great not to have interruption. -grin- That's the good part abt blogging..pple can comment after you post but not during. =p

Yups! I shall go n scout for more prom pics to add to my collection! Wahaha. When money comes rolling in then I can go n develop ALL the pics I've accummulated over the past 2 yrs. But for now, must wait for a job to come knocking first. Hahas. Ciao pple! =]

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Thursday, December 09, 2004
11:08 PM
Okay...I acty blogged the day after prom, but stupid blogger crashed on me so I couldn't publish my ultra long entry. I was so pissed! So nv blog again. Hahas.

Hmm..prom was alright lah, nth very exciting. Except for the part where Pei Shan won Prom Queen! And the Prom King was Fahmi. Wahaha. I'm really too lazy to blog everything about prom again, so I shall just let the pics speak for themselves. Speaking of which, I'm still uploading the prom pics, but the link will be up soon! I promise! Rmb to look out for it under my pics link and go see k! =]

Ohh! I watched The Incredibles le! And I just reaffirmed that I love Jack-Jack!!! He is sooooo CUTE! Hahas. Okay lah, I love all of them! Including Dash and Violet. Heh. If I could run half as fast as Dash, I'd be....wow. =p

Been trying to find jobs the past few days...went to register at Recruit Express, and got a pleasant surprise when I saw Emily there! She ended up interviewing me and Jeannie. Wahaha. Then today went to register at Tempserv...oso abt the same as RE lah...hope to hear from them soon man...and find a good paying job! Okay lah, nvm abt good paying. I mean, my mummy says dun be too choosy...can get job good enough le...so yeah...hahas.

Oh yes. Pei Shan is flying to Egypt in 30mins! Bye bye dear! Have fun k! And tkkaire lots! We'll cya at the Xmas party!!! =]

I shall resume uploading whatever photos I haven't uploaded...so that's it for now! Look out for prom pics! =]

me
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11:08 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]