.shut me out from this world.

Monday, October 11, 2004

11:34 PM

I can't be bothered anymore. I mean, why do I even bother??

If those bunch of idiots want to continue slamming us and slamming me, fine. I did say that to insult me is one thing, to insult my sch is another. But to insult using my name is totally unacceptable. I've blown up enough, and I'm not gonna care abt them anymore. Go ahead, make me the scapegoat. They won't be seeing me online anymore until 25th Nov anyway. I've wasted enough precious time on these stupid dorks.

I shouldn't have caved in and went online to fume. I shd have put that anger into sth more constructive, like Math for instance. Guess I must thank William; he did help to dispel my anger somewhat. He's really so funny. I miss his lameness. =]

Okay, I shd finish blogging what I want to say, once and for all. Cos' after tonight, I'm not gonna come online and bother abt such stuff again, esp the MPC blog, at least until A's are over. It's stupid to waste time doing such things. So pple, it's not that I dun wanna be a loyal committee member. But there's only so much I can do. We all have to study. Hard. In the meantime, just let those idiots insult me and slander me all they like. It's untrue anyway. Shallow pple like them do shallow things. Even if it doesn't blow over by the time A's end (which I doubt so), I'll just leave it alone. I dun have so much patience. And I'm already considerably better than in the past. They should thank their lucky stars.

I guess I dun haf much to blog le. I'm drained, really drained. The A's are taking so much out of me, yet I'm not giving my all. Not even half. It's really scary to think abt it. Having to prepare for the final battle in less than a mth, knowing you're nowhere near prepared. I really want back my past motvation, my drive. Where's it gone? Can you pls come back to me? I'm desperate already, really desperate. If I still dun wake up to reality now, I'm gonna die. Seriously die. And that's sth I can't afford. Not now, not ever.

So pple, pls dun be like me. Esp if you're the type who tends to procrastinate and all that. It'll kill you one day. Just like it's killing me now.

Shall end my blog here, for the next 1 over mth or so. It'll be hard to just keep mugging and not slacking, but that's my only option left. So pple, pls follow this too, okay? It'll help, really. Just jiayou for the last part and you'll be able to make it. All the best, cya.

Thanks for all your encouragement. Even if it was in the past. Some things just dun ever change. I know I can't change reality now, bring us back to what we used to be, bring back that short happiness I've yet to fully savour. But I know you've done alot for me, I'm thankful to you for it. You've taught me so much, even if you dun realise it. As long as I do, it's enough. You'll be facing your own final battle soon too, so good luck. No matter how you always used to worry that you wouldn't make it, I've always had faith in you. More than in myself. So dun let me down, dun let yourself down. I promise, I'll work hard too. While I hope we can meet again someday, even if we nv do, just know that there was someone who really cared for you as much as you cared for her. I'm sorry I nv showed it. So yes, I'll conclude here. All the best, take care.

me
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11:34 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

1:29 PM

I LIKE JOEL!!! =)

P.S. Hey Joel, I dun have to follow PS and say I'm committing a moment of infidelity. =p

me
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1:29 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

10:10 AM

Hahas, I'm in the sch hub using the comp again! So much for mugging. Eek. Haven't gone for any lessons today either. Oops. Hahas.

Tobias is such a bloody idiot. We're in the hub now, waiting for PS to finish her post about him. Then it'll be for all to see! Including that asshole. Wahaha.

Sorry about the vulgarities I'm spouting, pple. I know it ain't nice to use it on other pple (although I think using them to express my irritation with homework is fine. Muahahas), but this is really an extreme case. He soooo deserves it, I tell you. I hate this kind of bastards. God bless his parents man.

Okay, that's quite enough I think. We're all in hysterics now over the difference in size between S'pore and USA. Wahaha. For those of you who dun understand what I'm tokking abt, just go to here. Hahas. I can't wait for his rxn manz. Oh and btw, he's such an asshole. He just tagged on the blog. Yucks!!! -shudders-

I shan't waste any more time and space blogging abt that sickening, disgusting freakazoid. He'll get wad he deserves. Hah!

me
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10:10 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

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