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Saturday, October 09, 2004

5:18 PM

I'm so happy! Lalala! -big smile-

Just received a letter from my dearest Winnie! Hahas. And I haven't stopped smiling since. =) Glad to hear she's doing okay...even if she's struggling a little with studies. Heh. I think that's natural for many pple lah.

She was telling me that she hopes I'll go NTU nxt yr, so that we can see each other more often. =) If she told me this a few weeks ago, I would have replied that I have zero plans to apply to NTU. But that's before I found out that there's Banking and Finance course there! Lol. Nvm, try to do well for A's then apply to all 3 Unis. See which one I can go to...if it's really NTU, then I can see my darling senior often! Wahaha.

Okies, I feel all perky and happy all over again! Winnie is really my miracle medicine! Lol. And I miss her so! Can't wait for A's to hurry up and end so that I can meet up with her! =)

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5:18 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

4:20 PM

Happy birthday Daddy! =)

Hmm..abit of a boring day so far. Can't wait to go out later. =) Didn't get much studying done, as usual. But at least I completed most of what I planned to do today, save for the last few questions of the Math 2003 paper.

Oh man, watched Singapore Idol last night for the results, and once again, I'm so totally shocked and pissed at the final revelation! I've come to the conclusion that there's sth seriously wrong with Singapore.

I was amazed when Jerry managed to stay on, but I was literally speechless when David Yeo got booted out. How can this be??? David's, like, one of the better singers on the show! What the hell is Singapore doing?! I thought that after last week's shocking revelation, pple would learn to vote better. Unfortunately not. I'm not trying to say that Christopher is a terrible singer; I just don't think that David deserves to be eliminated. At least, not at this stage. As for Jerry, let's just say that many pple are shocked and furious that he's still in.

Don't get me wrong; I don't hate him. In fact, I actually kinda pity him for having to bear the brunt of so many pple's anger and irritation the past few weeks. No matter how good/bad he is, it is a fact that he's still in the competition simply cos' there are pple out there who support him enough. Honestly, I dun think he's good enough to still remain in the competition. But this is in comparison with the rest of the finalists. I can't say that he's a lousy singer on the whole; god knows how many pple there are out there who can't even sing a note if their lives depend on it.

Hopefully there'll be more pleasing results in the subsequent episodes. And for goodness sake, Singapore, pls vote wisely.

me
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4:20 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Friday, October 08, 2004

6:22 PM

I stumbled upon WY's blog. No, I do not know her personally, neither does she know me. But we both have a common friend. Although I dunno if he's someone she can still call her fren.

Sorry pple, if you're gonna have a super hard time trying to figure out what I'm blogging. The reason why I'm being so vague is cos' I realised that WY and I have common frens, and I dun wanna risk having any of them read what I'm abt to type. Not that it's anything bad, definitely not abt WY. Although I dunno her, I can tell that she's a really sweet and cute gal. A wonderful fren, too. Pity she had to see the less-than-favourable side of him. Okies. This is getting complicated. I shall just refer to the guy as 'M'. Makes things so much simpler.

If it wasn't for da fact that I read her blog, I wouldn't have known for sure that she and M have really broken up. I always thought they make a great couple; apparently not. At least, M wasn't a good bf. I still find it kind of hard to believe those things I read abt him. While I can always say, hey! Maybe WY is lying. After all, I don't know her and how shd I know if she's speaking the truth? Plus I'm not a close fren of M; maybe he's really not as she describes?

Sadly, though, I think I can say for sure that WY is being 99% truthful, if not 100%. The stuff I read abt him, those weren't nice. And yeah, like I suspected, he took her for granted. He wasn't a faithful bf. And I really hate this type of guys. They shd just disappear from the face of the earth, never to return. Jerks, all fo them. As a fren, he seems okay. Maybe cos' I don't know him well. More like mere aquaintances who get along well. But I'm not surprised at the picture she painted of him (in words). Cos' I think that's his real self. So much for being the wonderful guy with lotsa frens who is well-loved by everyone.

I suddenly feel very cheated. Okay, so I already had my reservations about his character and the type of guy he is, from the day I met him. He's a nice enough guy; just not of a good enough character. All those things he said abt himself, just how much of it is true? It all seemed to tally with what his frens said of him. After reading WY's blog and finding out the real reason behind their break-up, I'm not very sure if I still want to keep a fren like him. He's like the typical jerk. And yes, she used this word on him, too. I dun blame her. I really couldn't believe my eyes at the things she said that he did. My mouth literally fell open. Yet, it's just so him. I thought that after getting together with WY, he would change for the better. That he would stop being such a playboy and finally keep to his word, to be faithful to her. Apparently he didn't.

He doesn't know that I know abt them. So obviously, he doesn't know my disgust right now. I'm really very disappointed in him. I can only imagine what WY has had to go through. The poor gal. Oh wells. She's better off without him. The world doesn't need such jerks. And if I were to really speak to WY one day, I'll tell her that she did right by dumping him.

Hopefully M will soon wake up to his senses. He's hurt YW enough, and he shd stop being such a selfish jerk. I'm already pretty amazed that WY put up with him this long. All those things he did....urgh. -shudders- He's really proven himself to be si wen bai lei; looks can be deceiving. I dunno why WY still bothers with him though. I guess it's hard to just let go so completely and suddenly, a person whom you've loved for so long. Just hope that unless he can finally change himself for the better, he'll stop bothering her.

me
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6:22 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

4:45 PM

Mmm. I'm a happy gal today. =)

Didn't have many lessons; plus so many pple ponned. Lol. After sch, went wif PS to town to eat at Gapz! We were so excited abt eating dim sum (at last!) and sushi, but sad to say, it was kind of a letdown. Though it wasn't very, very expensive (final bill came to 30 over bucks), the food was disappointing. The sushi bar, especially. So little variety! And the unagi was cold. =\ But the dim sum made up for it! Yummy! Hahas. Okies lah, it wasn't fantastic, but still not bad! Pity there wasn't shao mai; I love shao mai! Hahas.

I blew the last of my allowance on tat meal, and though the food wasn't up to expectations, at least I had a fun time out. Talking rubbish and crapping while stuffing ourselves is my idea of fun. Muahahas! Wish the rest of them were with us too though. Nvm. After A's we'll all go for the dim sum meal we've talked so much abt okies! Heh.

Manz I'm wasting time online again. I really shd get started on mugging. I haven't done a single thing this whole week! Eek. Somemore I went to town twice. Yikes. Kill me somebody! >_<

Hahas sth weird just happened. William msged me on MSN while he's at camp, or so I thought. Until he said he was acty Liam's fren. Err??? -blur look- Whatever lah. But I think it wasn't him. Hahas. I realised sth abt NS guys. After they get into NS, they seem to get more boring in character! Or personality. Hahas. Which is pretty sad. Isn't it just so lucky that girls dun hafta do NS? Wahaha! -evil grin-

Okies, I shd really hit da books. But I've lost my momentum!!! Urgh. Anyone can find it back for me?? You'll be handsomely rewarded!!! =p

me
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4:45 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Thursday, October 07, 2004

6:47 PM

I was hunting for my old sec sch pics..those I took with my then-clique..and realised that none are digitally taken! So I took pics of the pics themselves. Lol. I can't help it that the pics are super off-colour and kinda blur. Hahas. But it just kinda brings back memories. =)

Here's one of me, Bern, Siew Ping and Eileen! Those were the days...hahas.

Me and Eileen Koh! Pity she didn't stay on in TJ.

Siew Ping, Eileen Lim, Eileen Koh and me! That was Racial Harmony Day. I'm the odd one out! In sch uniform. Hahas. I miss my IJ uniform!

Now I remember why I hated to take photos last time. Cos' I always looked so horrible! Until I put braces in sec sch, I nv liked to smile for da camera cos' of my reverse bite. Eek. Thank god those days are over. Even if it did cost my parents a few thousand dollars. -oops- And ohh. My stupid breakouts. I think I'll never ever be rid of them. Bleah. I'll nv go and look at my upper primary photos manz. Those days were the worst. I think my acne covered my face till that's all you see. Yuck yuck yuck! -shudders- Why am I remembering these huh. Eew. Too bad there's no permanent and definite cure for this stupid ailment. My mummy keeps telling me how she used to suffer from acne 10 times worse than mine. I seriously dun dare to even imagine. How can anything be worse than mine?? While it's comforting to know that maybe it's all thanks to genes that I have this irritating prob, it doesn't help that she says it'll clear. Like maybe in 10yrs time. Thanks but no thanks. I refuse to wait that long!

Hahas. Story of my life. Stupid issues that bug me all the time. Lol. But too bad, now I've gotta temporarily cast aside these issues to make way for bigger ones. Like da A's! Yikes. Speaking of which, I still have not started on my Gothic essay! Drat. Shall have to go off and force myself to do it now. Then I can watch Singapore Idol later! Woohoo! Hahas.

me
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6:47 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

6:07 PM

Oh manz. There were only 8 pple at assembly today! I think PD couldn't believe his eyes. Lol. Aniwaes, I think I shdn't haf gone to sch today. Horrible day! Okay lah, only the Lit part. -shudders-

Had to do Gothic mock exam cos' I failed it too spectacularly for prelims..urgh. And the qns are disgustingly horrible! Me and PS spent 3hrs doing the stupid context when we're acty supposed to finish both the context and the essay in 3hrs. So much for mock exam huh. Bleah. So we only handed in the context..and my god. When I recall how we tried to run away from Mrs Lau, I dunno whether to laugh or cry. Lol. We were in total hysterics man, torn btwn laughing our heads off and panicking at the thought of Mrs Lau bumping into Xtina (who so kindly helped us put our essays in the slot). Hahas. It was a total riot. We managed to 'escape' successfully, but I really dread to even imagine her reaction when she realises we handed up one out of two qns. Yikes.

Ooh! Brought da digicam to sch today, but unfortunately, I chose the wrong day to bring it. Seeing the number of pple who turned up today...lol. Still, I managed to take a few pics. Heh.

Here's Jeannie feeding her laogong (Joan). Piggy! Lol.

Jeannie looks too happy to murder Xtina. Hahas.

And here's another...

Teresa and Joan! =)

Pei Shan and Xtina acting goofy?? Lol!

I know da pics seem a little off colour. Don't ask me why!!! Lol. I'm a lousy photographer. =p Hahas. How fun to finally put up pics instead of just words, words, and more words. =)

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

11:25 AM

I'm in the Hub now with PS, Jean and Xtina! Hahas.

Ahh!!! Must type fast fast, Math lec is in 5 mins! Eek.

Just feeling bored and wanted to say hi to my dear bloggie! And everyone else. Lol. I sound really crappy and bored. Heh.

Oh my god I finally got the blog address of somebody with a perverse mind. -shudders- I shall nv go and read it if I can help it. My brain is just too immature to understand what the hell he types on his blog. And I'm unlike pple who have a natural sense of expressivity.

Don't I sound mean? Hahas. But really lor, pple who know who I'm referring to, dun tell me you can understand his blog entries!!!??? Muahahas. Keke.

Must go le. Tkkaire pple! -muacks-

me
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11:25 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

6:28 PM

I wonder if I shd continue going to sch. Hmm.

PD more or less gave us the go ahead today to pon sch. Okies lah, he didn't literally tell us "Hey! I dun gif a damn if you pple nv come to sch anymore! Just go ahead and pon all you like! Only don't say I said so!" The day he says that, cows will probably fly to Mars.

So aniwaes, he basically said that he'll close one eye if any of us do not turn up for classes. But then again, maybe he didn't say that. You know how it always is with me, never listening during classes and all that. Though this is more of a past trend. I do pay attention in class nowadays! At least, considerably more. Heh. Ohh, I'm digressing. -mental smack- Okies, as I was saying...maybe what he meant was, we can pon his classes and lectures?? Hmm. While I'd dearly love to do that (my old habit of falling aslp in Econs lec is returning), the very most I can pon is lessons and not sch itself. Unless someone out there can gimme a totally-valid-and-acceptable excuse/reason which I can happily present to my parents. Only then, will I be able to
1. stop waking up at 5 plus every morning
2. be saved from buses which have an abnormal tendency to break down twice (although this has only happened once; thank god!)
3. cure my urge to go into hibernation whenever there's Econs lecture -zZz-
4. every other thing (which I currently can't think of but I'm sure they do exist. Thus this general heading.)

That's why I've always appeared to be a rather guai and obedient student. I can almost hear pple protesting, teachers, especially.

"What?? You, guai?? You must be kidding!"

"If you're that obedient, where's the 28403250573 pieces of homework you owe me?!?"

Damn, I'm digressing again. Sth's wrong with me today. -another mental smack- ohh no, cannot smack le. I'm stupid enough! Yikes.

Okies, enough with all that rubbish. All I've managed to prove is my fast track towards insanity. And who's fault is that? Obviously the education system's fault! Grrr! And don't get me started now! I could go on and on abt it!!! >_<'''

As I was saying, I'm such a good student (rolls eyes) solely because my dear parents are absolutely insistent that I have to be a wonderful and trouble-free student with perfect attendance (unless I'm sick). Which is seldom, but unfortunately I haven't been able to convince them that I'm really allergic to sch. Lessons, actually. But I dun mind Math tutorial! I really don't! Got my fav tutor! Mr Quek!!! Lol. I sound like a crazed fan. -grins-

I don't know where I'm heading with this topic. Wait...what's even the topic?? I tell you, I'm starting to sound like my old self. Like in my other past bloggies. While it gives me sth to blog abt in this period of boredom n stress (think A levels! Ahhhh!!!), I sound like a crazy and hyperactive girl. Lol.

It's quite a stress reliever to blog utter rubbish and crap like some bimbotic moron (though I insist that I'm absolutely NOT one!). =p Maybe I shd do this more often. -imagines look of horror on reader's face- Muahahas!

me
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6:28 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Monday, October 04, 2004

9:40 PM

It's true that little things others do for you can really brighten up your day. =)

Had a bad start to a new day..the bus I took to sch broke down, not once, but twice! Needless to say, I was late. Interestingly though, there were other TJCians who took the later bus..either they dun care about being late, or...well...-shrugs-

So aniwaes, I had to rush to parade square to be on time for assembly..while I was barely able to manage that, throwing my bag down as the anthem started, I couldn't tap my stupid card...so duh, I was late. -rolls eyes- Sometimes I think the system is quite stupid, really. But whatever lah. I can't be bothered with it. Only another week plus of school left aniwaes.

With such a bad start, of cos' I was in a bad mood. Bleah. But it all changed when I reached home! Heh. I was pretty sian when I got home, but I saw sth on my table which made me smile. =)

My daddy left my allowance on my table (that's not what made me smile, btw, although I do love money =p), but he did more than just that. Actually, I've been meaning to cut an article out from Sat's papers, but I forgot until this morning. So, I wrote a little post-it and stuck it on my table to remind myself when I reached home. And guess what? When daddy put my allowance on the table, he saw the note and went to help me search for the article and cut it out! So sweet! =) So I say, it's these little things pple do which really brighten up my day. -smiles- It was super effective in dispelling my bad mood manz...I was all smiles after that! Hahas. Thanks daddy! Muacks! =)

Hmm...that aside, I've finally gotten back all my prelim results...can't say I've done well..but it's an improvement overall. Rather pleased with GP though; I did better than I expected. Heh. Especially for the essay. I was so convinced I'd fail it or sth. Looks like miracles do happen after all. Hahas. All that remains to be seen si the moderation for the various subjects...then I'll get to know my final grades!

Eek, A's are pressing closer and closer! Help! -panics- I'm trying hard not to panic and slack and blah blah, but it's kinda hard. After prelims ended, I've been slacking quite alot; can't even rmb simple formulas and definitions now! Yikes. Okies okies, I shall work hard from now! Only another 4 more weeks; ahh!!! Hahas. Jiayou pple! Gambate! =p

me
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9:40 PM

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