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Friday, September 24, 2004

2:28 PM

I've still got a few hours to go before meeting Sabbie darling.

I miss her so!

Haven't seen her in such a long time, save for that few mins on Wed at Parkway. Pure coincidence. Heh. While I'm excited at the prospect of finally gonna have fun with her before our A's, it also brings back memories. Those days were the best days I had in TJ. 1st 3 mths. How I miss it. The frens I made then, I thought we'd all stay together. Yet we all had to part. That was sad. Yet it's pretty amazing how out of all the pple I know, it's the frens I get to meet once every few mths, who really, truly, do count.

I'm not saying my current frens are a terrible lot. They're wonderful pple, great frens, and I love them . Really. But there's just sth missing. The solidity and security of a true frenship I always thought I'd find in any fren. Hmm. What am I tokking abt? -shrugs-

I miss my jiemei. I haven't seen her for ages. A really, really long time. We were practically inseparable when we first knew each other. Although at that time, I barely knew her for even 6 mths, the frenship forged was totally there. She's always been there for me; my happiness, my sorrows, she knew them all. When she was happy, she'd share with me too. And when she was sad, I lent her my shoulder to cry upon. But I guess distance does make a difference. We're still good frens, wonderful jiemeis, but it's somehow different. Maybe I'm just a sucker for past memories. They keep me alive. I hope I'll nv forget them. If not, life wun be worth living.

Those IJ days...I miss them too. Along with wonderful memories, comes regrets as well. Regrets on my part. I dun wanna dwell on them anymore. I spent enough time in the past. Let's just hope that whatever I've been doing since then will slowly make up for it. Redeem whatever wrong I did. I can't ever wish for those days again, so I'll just be content to rmb them. Memories again.

I dunno what got me into this mood. Must be the weather. Plus the fact that I'm listless at home. Nvm. I have another 4hrs to work up excitement. Though I suspect I wun need it. The moment I see Sabbie dear later, I'm gonna give her a big hug. Hope she'll like the gift I made for her. =]

me
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2:28 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Thursday, September 23, 2004

2:45 PM

Yays! Got a new template! Heh. I quite like this one...a big colour change from the previous one. That was all pink, this is all grey! Hahas.

Hmm...but I dunno how to change my taggie thingy..da colour now doesn't suit. Heh. Somemore da text size is too big. Eek. But I'm a computer nut so I have absolutely no idea how to change them. Help, somebody! Lol.

Wah. Spent quite some time doing this thing le. Kinda helped to ease my boredom. Hahas.

I can't wait for tml!!! -smiles-

me
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2:45 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

9:53 PM

Prelims are finally over!!! Woohoo!

I already planned to slack like nobody's business once Lit ended today. And guess what?

I'm bored. As in, seriously, seriously bored.

After reading Cleo (yays! finally get my Cleo fix!!!), I realised I had nth left to do. Talking online now wif Xtina...hahas. I told her I almost feel as if I shd just mug again. Lol. I dun think I need to go into details regarding her horrified response. =p

Of cos' I'm kidding. After a mth of nothing but mugging, I've had enough!!!

Yet it's a fact that I've nth to do now. Urgh.

Where's my life????

me
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9:53 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Sunday, September 19, 2004

1:02 PM

I am so f***ing pissed right now. EXTREMELY PISSED.

I finally understand it now why some pple insist that women are petty creatures. I so TOTALLY understand it now.

Let me narrate what just happened, although I am so angry I just feel like smashing da comp.

My dad realised that I hadn't eaten breakfast, so he told me to grab a bite from da kitchen. I didn't know what was there to grab, but saw my sis eating noodles so I thot, okay, I shall cook noodles. Then just before I went into the kitchen, I had to walk past my mum, who was ironing in the living room. Then she told me to ccok her share too, cos' she wanted to eat. Fine. Cook her share. 2-in1. I'm can do that. No prob.

So I went in, then I realised that my dad was telling me(from the living room) to add double the amount of water cos' I was gonna cook 2 pieces of noodles. Which was when I yelled back(u must realise, I was at the far end of the kitchen, and it was absolutely necessary to yell in order to make myself heard) that each piece of noodle was quite big, and I didn't know how I was gonna fit them both into the pot. And guess what? My freaking mum(I would have used worse words if not for da fact that she's my mum) shouted back to me "Not happy then don't cook lah! Cook your own lah! I can cook it myself!"

Like, hello??????

Did I say I wasn't gonna cook for her?? When did I say that?? Was I even shouting at her?? I wasn't even talking to her lah, wtf!!!!!!

Of course I fumed while cooking. And duh I cooked her share too. I said I would so of cos' I did. While I was boiling the water she repeatedly shouted into the kitchen for me not to cook lah, that she can cook her own noodles, she didn't need me to do it for her. F***.

And what happened after that? I'll tell you wtf happened.

I finished cooking the whole pot then separated the noodles into 2 bowls. Apparently the noodles absorbed most of the water; there was very little soup. And since I know she likes her noodles with alot of soup, I poured them all into her bowl. Not that I minded. I seldom drink the soup. But wth. Did she appreciate my effort? NO. I left her bowl on the kitchen table then I took mine outside to eat. And then what happened?? My dad was sitting on the sofa watching tv, and she walked by and said loudly to him:"You don't eat the noodles then I pour them away ah!" And guess where was I sitting? Just right in front of him. She might as well just have stabbed me ion the heart. The best part is my dad just ate before that. And just to spite me, she insisted he eat them, knowing full well that he was too full to eat. Which would of cos' give her the chance to pour the noodles I COOKED right in front of me.

Tell me, are women petty creatures of what? And the above account is told exactly the way it happened. I may be damn angry with her for doing that, but I won't purposely twist words to put her in a bad light.

I really couldn't believe my ears when she said that. Call herself a grown and mature woman. Do u know how f***ing childish that sort of behaviour is???? I was so tempted to just throw my chopsticks down and dump her entire bowl of noodles in to dustbin. But that would be wasting food. I dun like to waste food. Just think of those poor African children who can't even fill their stomachs. And the only reason why she wanted to do that was to SPITE ME.

She's the ultimate manz. I dun wanna believe it, but I'm really speechless. I almost hope that she'll see this entry. But of cos' she wun.

Why do I always have to give in to her?? Other pple wun get into serious trouble for talking back to their mum when they get scolded. No. Not talk back. Is try to REASON. I can't even do that. The moment I open my mouth, she thinks I'm going to get all rebellious and retort a 100 sentences. Have I ever had a chance to that?? I didn't even reply her just now! She just kept shouting at me and I kept quiet. All over a bowl of noodles. I'm so f***ing angry now I'm threatening to spoil my keyboard by typing so hard.

Can't she just get it into her head that just cos' she's my mum and my elder, it doesn't give her the right to be unreasonable??? And I know that if she were to see me typing this now, she'll really go for my life. But I dun care. I've had enough. Whenever she's in a bad mood, she has the right to take it out on us. But when any of us in the family are in a bad mood and we show it to no one in particular, she claims we have an attitude problem. Okay, fine, so sometimes we do have an attitude problem. But it's not like we're purposely trying to drive her up the wall!!!!!

I'm really very very angry with her. What kind of SHIT attitude was that lor. I didn't even do anything WRONG. All I did was to ask how to fit 2 big pieces of noodles into a pot. And she blew up. F*** lah! -kicks something. HARD-

Learn from my lesson. Women are petty creatures. Not all, but they do exist. I have one right in my house. Some pple, after reading this entry, may think that it's not right for me type this on my blog. That she's my mum after all, that as her daughter, I have no right to say all this about her. But I dun care. I dun care even if we make it up later and I regret typing all this. I dun regret it NOW and that's what matters. I'm too angry to bother.

So there.

me
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