Saturday, August 14, 2004
2:15 AM
This entry is basically in response to my sis' blog abt her seniors. I was tagging her tagboard halfway but got prob then cannot cont to tag. And I'm barely halfway done lah. Bleah. Hopefully those snrs of hers find my blog and read this entry.

Before I start, let me make things clear. If any of you snrs who keep giving your juniors a hard time read this, you are NOT to go and make life more difficult for them cos' I SAY SO. God created you not to give you da right to make your juniors' lives a living hell. Just as how no one else has the right to make your life a living hell.

To be fair, I dun really know the whole story of what happened. Maybe it's sth very ordinary n mundane. I mean, it's common to hear jnrs complain abt snrs from time to time. or all da time. *shrugs* But when snrs reply with threats and things get outta hand, I think it's unfair to everyone and you pple shd really reflect on what it is that's going so wrong.

Like I said, nobody has da right to make another person's life hell, much less more than 1 person. I can understand when snrs bully jnrs; I may have been guilty of it myself in da past. But I know for sure that when things got outta hand, I distinctly recall settling everything wif my jnrs personally so that a cold war wouldnt escalate and involve da band. I dun understand why u pple can't do da same thing now. First, can u all pls go and reflect on your own actions? Why is it that jnrs are complaining abt u all? And I can say for sure that there are many more pple like my sister n her frens hu blog abt such things, just that they're less direct for fear of being found out. There's no wrong in being direct, esp on your blog where you're supposed to blog abt your personal feelings. No one can tell you how to blog. And it's really pple's own business whatever they want to blog abt.

I mentioned that you all shd reflect on your actions. To be honest, I've long been hearing abt cases of snrs bullying n I know of many jnrs who can't take it. Not necessarily in your band. It's normal for such things to happen; you can't please everyone. What I'm curious to know is why da hell you snrs are doing this. Issit cos' your own snrs did this to you and u're now just carrying on da tradition by bullying ur jnrs in return? You probably think that since I can take it, why can't they, right?

Wrong.

I can totally understand if you wanna make your jnrs 'suffer' a little. But do you realise that these are normally more out of fun than for real? Perhaps it's da fact that yours is a military band with an image and reputation to uphold. But that doesn't give you all an excuse to treat your juniors badly.

What I'm pissed about is not that you all are bullying your jnrs; nopes, not quite. It's more of your responses. Do you know that it's an utterly low down method to threaten your jnrs further? On their tagboard somemore?? Saying that alot of snrs come online and that they know the jnrs' blogs..that your conductor also comes online often...Have you no minds of your own? If you dare to say it, why dun you dare to make known your identity?? Afraid that pple will mock you for your childish behaviour? Let me tell you, by keeping your identity mum, pple will mock you even more. I for one absolutely despise such behaviour. Call yourselves snrs and rolemodels. What bullshit.

If you want your jnrs' respect, you pple haf gotta earn it. In fact, you all shd respect them so that they will respect you in return. Making childish threats ain't gonna get you anywhere. Maybe not all of you are liddat; I'm sure not. But da small group of you doing these totally ruin da reputation of all.

Okies, so I agree, perhaps my sis was a little too direct and harsh in condemning her snrs. But that's her. She's just liddat. It's not like she chose to pick on you pple for no rhyme or reason. She has better things to do than that. I bet you if I were da one to offend her she'll condemn me equally. Just cos' I'm her sister doesn't mean I get 'preferential' treatment in this aspect. I mean, similarly, do I sound like I'm defending her all da way? I dun think so.

Please wake up your idea, snrs. Dun go about blindly insulting and threatening your jnrs in return just cos' they made their complaints public. Does it mean you all are coming after me too? Like what can you all do to me. I dun give a damn, honestly. I did nth wrong. And pls note, this is my blog for me to say what I like and you can't stop me, so dun bother. Tag your complaints if you want; I dare you to identify yourselves.

Ultimately, you pple will suffer as well cos' this kind of disunity will affect da band as a whole. Band is abt unity and cooperation; in fact, many things are. Dun let such a trivial matter blow out of proportion and make everyone's life hell. You think that even if your conductor stands up for you all it means your revenge is taken? That everything will be fine again? That's crap and you know it. Dun be so disillusioned. I'm sure u've had your fair share of complaints of your own snrs in da past. Dun be so quick to condemn jnrs just cos' they're doing now what you pple used to do in da past. And dun gimme crap abt not having complained last time. Even if not publicly, you would have grumbled abt them at least once before. If you haven't, you shd be a really nice person who thus will not threaten your jnrs in this manner.

I've said my piece and I rest my case. Pls just think back on what has happened and rethink your response, even to my entry. You'll realise that wad I've blogged does contain truth, even if not all entirely right. I've been a snr before and still am one. If you wanna talk abt experience, I have it. If you want to talk in terms of seniority, I'm also more senior than you. So dun be foolish and start your groundless threats again. All that abt using others snrs against your jnrs...hah.

Just rmb that you wun always get your way, and that you're not always right. God does exist; there is no need for any of you to play God and want to punish your jnrs severely for having blogged complaints. Please stop blowing up da matter out of proportion; it's not gonna help. U shd be thankful that your paths got to cross and you pple got to know one another/can share a snr-jnr relationship. It's so totally childish to resort to this sort of thing and to land up in an ugly scenario.

I've said this once and I'll say it again. I am NOT defending the jnrs just cos' my sister is one of them. If it were the opposite scenario, I'd still stand by what I think. And I'm not saying this just cos' it's easy to say all this. I'm da kind who means what she says and I'm not afraid to come clean with what I truly think. If you realise, I haven't concealed my identity for fear of being slammed. I dun care n I dun gif a damn cos' I'm not wrong. I'm being fair here and if after such a long entry u still dun see my point, then all I can say is, you've wasted you time, though I'm not sorry abt it. You can go resume your childish threats now if you want to.

me
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2:15 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

12:03 AM
Oh manz I haven't come online for, like, eons!!! Thx for ur concern pple! Those who tagged esp, heh. I wanted to tag but I think sth's wrong wif it again. I can't tag! Bleah. And omg, so much has happened! I almost dunno where to start. Okies, shall start wif today first then blog backwards. Heh. Put up wif me pple, this is gonna be a pretty long entry I think. Lol.

Hmm..went to sch for Othello test. What a horrible start! And I thought of going running/cycling wif my Dad lah. Plan foiled. Bleah.

Tried to mug in da sch canteen but when I kept falling aslp after reading da same Econs qns for the tenth thousoundth time, I gave up. Went to Parkway BK to mug instead wif Jeannie and GY. At first it wasn't too bad. Then da sleeping spells hit me again. *dots* So I went to walk around wif Jeannie and we bought my Old Chang Kee squid fritters! *yummilicious!* Heh. And wow, what a coincidence (it really was one) I bumped into my section! Okies, to be more exact, some of them only. Hahas. They were waiting for a table at Swensens...apparently there's this ice-cream thingy that's, like, really cheap! 'Topless Five" for $1.39 only! Heh. Then laoba already said that day that he treating his nu ers so I figured, why not? Lol. But in doing so I pang seh GY and Jeannie; GY in particular. Sorry Aunt!!! >_<

So aniwaes spent abt 2 hrs in total sitting there crapping...it was super hilarious cos' there were so many of us and all we wanted to order was that cheap cheap ice-cream...lol! In fact, practically half (or more, actually) of da customers in Swensens were eating that lah...heh. Yups...so I had fun there...totally slacking from studies! *guilty look* But it was great lah...just sitting wif a big group of pple and eating, yakking rubbish and having fun...like da old days...mugger life is really abt sacrifices!!!

After that went back to BK to find GY...who somehow developed a flu. Hmm. Aniwaes shall not blog abt what happened after that. Not exactly very happy..but aniwaes we went to TPY and just sat and talked...walked around...quite fun acty! Heh.

Okies..now that I've finished blogging abt today's happenings, I can concentrate on what has been happening da past few days. And manz, I'm really not quite sure where to start.

Hmm...Jeannie thinks Joan's angry with her for finding Andy kelian. Erms I kinda dowan to blog that name le, so I shall just refer to him by some other nickname..like sheep or sth. Yups. Dowan to tarnish my impression of other Andys whom I know. That would be so unfair to them. Pity they hafta share da same name as him.

So da bottomline being, he's being a bastard and totally showing his true colours. We found out during da last chengteng session that he's been spreading untruths behind our backs. Okay, more specifically, telling different versions of sth to different pple. Da fact being that it's abt Joan makes it all da worse. She's been absolutely livid the past few days, and I honestly dun blame her. If he stabbed me in da back this way, I'd hate him more than she hates him right now. And let's not go into that, shall we? Dun wanna spoil my mood.

I dun really know what to think liao lah. It's just that everytime I recall how we all first knew each other last year being classmates and everything, and I'm totally amazed at how things have turned out. So it's really true that looks can be deceiving, that you can't judge a book by its cover.

I dunno if the sheep will read this, seeing how he actually reads Joan's blog and even dared to confront her abt it, but I just want him to know that we totally hate the way he's behaving. You know what? You dun hafta act cool and gek sey and everything just to show that you're popular and have lotsa friends or sth. It'll just make pple pity you for trying so hard. For your info, we're not a means for you to get lotsa friends k? Hanging out with us doesn't mean our friends will become yours, too. Just cos' you have half the world's handphone numbers doesn't make you their friend.

I feel rather mean for blogging all that and thinking horrible thoughts abt him and gossiping yada yada, but he really deserves it lor. The fact that he has a rather babyish looking face makes it harder to just go ahead and say he's a f***ing bastard. I mean, like, when he talks to me in sch, I just respond and reply his qns lor. Although I really dun want to. I just dunno how to ignore him lah. I dun like ignoring pple if I can help it. Cos' I hate da feeling of being ignored. Pple always say, do unto others what you want others to do unto you. *shrugs*

Hai. What a big mess life has suddenly become. I think it's even messier for him. Maybe he shd just change class or sch or sth. If I were him and I had to go through all these, I doubt I'll be able to concentrate fully on studies and treat it as if everything's fine. It's hard, no, almost impossible to survive w/o friends. To attempt doing so during a crucial period of your life when friends are extremely impt is even worse. Oh wells.

In short, he brought it upon himself lah okay. Nobody wants such a thing to happen to them. but since it happened, sth must have caused it right? I mean, I believe that everything happens for a reason. And honestly speaking, maybe it's a good thing that this is his last year with us in da same class and sch. I seriously doubt Joan will ever forgive him. And yeah, I feel irritated and annoyed even just looking at him. It's as if the very sight of him irks us so much it's unbearable. Even worse when he tries to be farnie, like through sms and all that. Since we obviously ignore him so he has no chance to communicate with us except through sms. How sad manz. And even then, it's not like he always gets a reply. *shrugs*

Aiyah, I think it's a waste of time even to blog so much abt him le. Waste my time and energy! Pple, pls beware of such bastards! Those who appear to be gentlemenly and everything...as if they make great friends. But they stab you behind your back. Dun ever give them the time of the day! Not literally lah. I mean, like, just totally ignore them and all that. Bish them if they dare to come near you! Heh.

Okies, I din realise it's midnight le. Still got long day tml; all da mugging I hafta catch up on! But gotta stay home; die. Hopefully I can try to concentrate enough to get something done. Bleah. Nites pple!

me
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12:03 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Sunday, August 08, 2004
1:22 PM
Oh manz...I'm so irritated! My plans for this long weekend have been ruined! *bleah*

Was so looking forward to today..but wth, I woke up with a fever ytd..ended up slping the whole day away w/o doing any work. Worst still, it persisted until today! So bo pian, had to cancel my plans to go out with Pris...argh!

Hai..how unlucky can I get manz..doubt I'll actually get any mugging done at all this 4 days..effects of da medicine are damn power sia..I slept da whole day ytd..wad a total waste of time! Damn...

Even as I'm typing this, I feel like curling up on my bed again..hopefully I'll recover by tml or sth...wad a dampener on my plans.. >_<

me
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1:22 PM

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