Friday, August 06, 2004
9:21 PM
Had ND celebration at sch today, so no lessons, heh. Turned up in own clothes...gosh, was surrounded by a sea of red! Almost felt "extra" in my white top...hahas. Aniwaes after da celebrations, me went to Jeannie's house to watch Othello and Much Ado! Also got Joan, Xtina, Teresa, Mel, John and Andy. Thot it would be pretty fun to watch 2 videos at 1 go, but omg, watching Shakespearan movies ain't very easy at all! It's quite tiring somehow...maybe it's harder to understand?? Heh. Plus while watching we think of quotations and analysis and themes and blah blah...lol. So even before halfway through Much Ado, I fell aslp on Xtina's shoulder hahas. We ended up not watching the whole of Much Ado...instead, slacked arnd a little then decided to go out. But I had to go hme aniwaes so yeah. Not sure if da rest of them are home yet, even as I'm typing this. =)

And wow, Xtina will make a great cook one day I think. Hahas. Cooked broccoli for us..yummilicious! =p Then we gorged ourselves on nuggets and chips and drinks...omg, I must have put on god knows how many kilos from eating all that junk! Plus I had really good food for dinner too...oh no...must start to eat healthier le...hahas...

And..hmm...felt kinda bad today lah. Abt a particular someone...pple in my clique, u shd know who I'm referring to yar? Dun wanna spell it out lah. But truth is, I guess we were abit on da mean side. I dun really wanna behave liddat, but my impression has changed quite alot...since da very first day...and I'm not sure I like what I'm seeing now. Budden again, it's a free country, we can do whatever we like. Just as long as we're able to bear da consequences I guess. *shrugs*

Tml's gonna be another sian day. Can't believe I'll be spending my Sat rotting at home, literally. Bleah. But Sunday's gonna be a fun day! Hopefully lah, lol. Will be meeting my darling jiemei! Miss her lots manz...hahas. Can go mugging and shopping...woohoo! =p Go watch band perf at Paragon then fireworks at Esplanade...then da next 2 days after that also no sch...this has gotta be da best ND break I've ever had! =)

me
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9:21 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Tuesday, August 03, 2004
10:23 PM
Is it really so easy to just be happy?

To look deep into your heart for your desire and happy memories...then sadness will take a backseat? Really?

I still find it hard to comprehend. I mean, I tend to remember unhappy stuff more easily than happy memories. Of cos I do have wonderful memories which bring a smile to my face. But more often than not, I'm reminded of things and pple I'd rather forget.

The pain is lessening, but I still 'see' him wherever I go, whatever I do. Just when I think it's all gonna be okay, all my sadness has ebbed away, that I'm finally over it, something will just remind me of the past. Even sth as simple and as ordinary as a certain type of candy. Or a shop. A place.

Sometimes I wonder if it would be better if I could just erase the painful memories. But then again, these memories, plus the happy ones, are what makes me me. Because of my experiences, I've grown to be the person I am. No matter how painful the memories, I'm sure I've learnt sth from every experience in life. So if I could erase those memories, wouldn't that be erasing part of my identity?

Dunno lah, sounds so chim after a while. Though at that point in time, while thinking abt it, it seems to make alot of sense. *shrugs*

me
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10:23 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]