Saturday, June 19, 2004
3:27 PM
This is da number what time I'm blogging today?!

Manz..I shock myself even. Hahas.

Lalala..day's almost gone and I'm still here online..doing what shit..instead of trying to understand econs from da very 1st chpt, slog at math revision exercises and commit Donne and Gothic to memory, I'm learning about html and whatnot. HurZ.

Later gonna haf dinner at TCC..at Millenia Walk! Hahas..after 2 foiled plans to go out and have some fun, it's abt time I could take a breather away from the stifling atmosphere at home..away from da books and what shit have you.

Just realised my language is getting extremely colourful. Using words like fcuk (play around with it hahas) pretty often now. Like just now, when my stoopid computer threw tantrums in my face a gazillion times. I was so pissed that I cursed it well and good. Not that it started behaving any better. *shrugZ*

I love da hols. Dis hols especially, cos' I've been having fun. Too much fun, if you ask me. Or anyone else, for that matter. Hee. Considering I have exams in a week which I have yet to start studying for. Hmm. Sounds pretty bad? Gotta be my most ill-prepared exams ever. Not even last yr's JCT can beat this yr's sia. I'm really going in there to fail.

The million dollar question is, just how badly??

me
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3:27 PM

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12:22 PM
Can't believe how bored I am! Ahaha..online again..as alwiz...instead of mugging..*bleaH* Half da day's gone and I haven't started on anything..wth, more than half da hols is gone and I haven't mugged at all!

This calls for total panic! But I just dun wanna study. Of cos', I'll be da one to suffer in da end. I know that. *shrugZ* Call me a stubborn, lazy, piggy idiot...I am. Ha.

Ooh love my hamsters lots!!! Haha..couldn't resist taking a pic... =p



Not very well taken, but then again, da angle's kinda weird cos' of where it's positioned. Hahas. Nvm. Can see can liaoz. *grinZ* Da baby hammie's cuter!!! But I couldn't get a nice shot. *bleaH*

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12:22 PM

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9:39 AM



Hmm...IJ organising a True Blue Arts Fest thingy on 3rd & 4th July...think I should go...sounds like fun! Hahas...plus da band will be performing...*smiLeZ*

Hey any IJ gal who sees this, or anyone, for that matter, do go! Haha..IJ rockz! =)

me
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9:39 AM

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9:12 AM
I thought I didn't give a damn liaoz.

Apparently I thought wrong.

Just when I finally decided that this ain't da way to handle things, you learnt from me and just ignored everything. Couldn't it have turned out some other way? Don't you know that a gal's words can't be trusted abt half da time? Obviously you don't, or you wouldn't have had trouble with her in the past and had to ask me for advice.

God knows why I gave it, why I helped you. Although in da end it all turned out for da best. Or so I thought.

Haven't seen you in what feels like an eternity. Wth, I think it has been an eternity. >_<

Sometimes I really wonder why. That time, should I have answered the way I did? If I told you sth different, would you have changed your ans? No, wait...why da hell did you even ask me that?? I really hate that qns...still hate it until today..I really, really thought I'd gotten over it. And for awhile, I really did.

But it's all coming back to me now.

Where are you? Come back quick.

I miss you.

me
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9:12 AM

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Friday, June 18, 2004
7:06 PM
Was looking through my folders..then I came across da pics taken on Prelude XXIV..and I remembered what da section juniors gave us! Ahaha...




Da dustpan thingy! Lolz..really quite cute..hee..okies..so I'm still new to this pic thingy..Still trying to perfect it..but must wait till after JCT...after JCT when I have a little bit more time...hahas..

me
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7:06 PM

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6:08 PM
I miss my life.

When things were simple. When friends were always by my side, always there for me when I needed them.

Sadly, it ain't this way anymore. Not for a long time now.

But maybe things are gonna change. I can feel it, and am hoping for it.

Maybe, just maybe, my life will come back. =)

me
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6:08 PM

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Thursday, June 17, 2004
10:37 PM

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

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10:37 PM

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10:17 PM
Finally finished my notes on Donne...da 5 love poems and 3 sonnets...oh manz...Donne is so getting into my head I'm so irritated! When I walked past this billboard advertisment just now, it said in big caps, "DONE DEAL!" And guess what? I thought I saw "DONNE"...*dotZ* Eyes playing tricks on me...haha...

My mugging sessions still ain't working da way they should. Been going out mugging da past few days, but what I've covered so far is so amazingly little I really wonder what I've been doing those many, many hours! *dotZ* No xin1 to mug is one thing..like I was telling Jeannie ytd, I already kinda planend out what I wanna do liaoz..da one yr break thingy and all that...the more I think abt it, the more appealing it sounds to me...granted, da stigma of starting university one yr later than others(if I can make it to uni) will be there, I wun deny that. But hopefully I'll be able to get over that. Hmm..after all, it's by my own choice mah..and it really does seem to be for the better..as compared to probably doing badly for A's end of this yr, then tyco-tyco(if I'm lucky!) go uni and do dunno what wif shit grades..haha...sounds like a total night mare to me! Think I'll die if that happens..hee...

Anyway..shall do more 'research' on my plan and try to convince my parents..then I'll set abt trying to prepare what I can for A's...>_<

me
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10:17 PM

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1:05 PM
Was just reading Joan's blog..yeah, I do agree wif wad she said abt competition and comparisons..exam stress is inevitable, esp wif them just around da corner..I admit, sometimes I do lapse into that hateful mentality of why so-and-so is better than me or that I'm smarter than so-and-so..but it's really stupid and useless to compare lor.

I mean, what's da point? Ultimately, our one true competition is ourselves, and not others. If others do well, fine and good. If they don't, well, they'll noe best why. Same applies for ourselves. For me. I know that I dun do well cos' I dun bother to study. Oh manz, believe me, I so totally know that. Haha. It's nothing to be proud of, but at least I can safely say I'm not doing well cos' of myself, and not others. No one's putting stress on me. True lah, when I see pple mug and get good grades, it's a form of stress for me. But I really HATE studying. I dun see da point of it, honestly. All those stuff about doing well so that you'll have a bright future. Many have done so otherwise. Look at Bill Gates manz. And so many others! But okay lah, I'm not like them. I dun have a business head. At least, not now. Haha.

Hmm..enough abt that. Hee.

Listening to 'Celebration' now...I miss it. I really do. Miss playing it, miss the band, miss da section..miss da camaraderie we shared during SYF, all those talks(even scoldings! =p), late nights preparing for concert, hiong practices we had, da fun we shared in Thailand, the friendships forged and bonds strengthened...

I miss it all.

me
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1:05 PM

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004
10:19 AM
I'm officially in freak-out mode!!!

Arghh!!!

JCT in less than 2 wks and what have I done??

*ponders* That's a gd qns. And noe wad? I realised that with less than 2 wks to go, I haf one and a half yr's work load to mug.

Crap.

My life sux. *sigh*

Been having so much fun da last 2 wks going out and catching up wif frens tat I totally forgot abt hitting da books!!! Okie okie, so I'm a darn lazy pig too..couldn't be bothered as well...*mental slap*

Went out to mug ytd but didn't get much done..as a result of waking up at 6am for 2 days in a row to run, I got so tired while mugging at Macs that I literally fell aslp doing math qns!!! Omg! I can't believe myself sumtimes, really..*shakes head* Da vest part is, after da supposed mugging session wif Ter and his CJC fren, we went to play pool lah..*dotZ* Or rather, they played while I watched..as a super lousy beginner, it's better not to attempt to play as well when da guys are having some silent competition..ahaha..but saw some pretty good players there..okie lah, not as good as him, but still...*smiLeZ*

Just took a little time to come online and do some stuff..going out soon..meeting Jeannie darling to mug! Ahaha...hopefully I'll acty get sth constructive done sia..den can go walk walk abit! Lolz..

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.girl in question.
[geri]
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[shopaholic]
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.adores.
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[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
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.take note.
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.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
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[prelude XXIV]
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[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
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