Friday, April 23, 2004
12:01 AM
I made up my mind abt certain things.

Was chatting to GY online all da while..then telling her abt my plans..and so on..asking for her help n all that..she kept telling me can go to laoba..but I dun wan..I just absolutely refuse to lah. I'll only do that after I've attained a certain passable standard. Right. And when will that be? *shrugZ*

My mind is in pieces. I have so much on my mind. Thinking of so many things. So many things left undone. Untouched. Uncared for. Am I even making any sense? I realise I never do anymore.

Am I losing my mind?

I just feel so tired. So tired of life. Of studies. Of school. Sometimes, even of friends. Sometimes I wish for a world where there's just me, myself and I. But I know that I can't live without friends. Without love. Without companionship. Without family. So what's da point of having this wish?

Just trying to sort out my thoughts here. The messy jumble I call my mind.

Why do things have to come to this? Was it all my fault?

Maybe. Or is it definitely?

*sigH*

me
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12:01 AM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Tuesday, April 20, 2004
8:41 PM
-I hate it that I'm starting to hate you-

-I hate studying. I dun wanna take my A's-

-Why am I in TJ??-

-Studying depresses me-

-I need someone to talk to. Where are you when I need you da most?-

-I'm a fallen angel-

me
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8:41 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Sunday, April 18, 2004
10:02 PM
I am dead tired.

Came back from band camp..it wasn't ultra fun like other camps..very training intensive..but I had fun aniwae..n have I mentioned just how I love my darling section?? *smiLeZ*

I was in a pretty good mood today..despite having slept only abt 3 hrs last night..but it all disappeared in a cloud of smoke da moment I got into da car..daddy was telling me abt how da parent-tutor dialogue went ytd. As usual, bad. Period. I mean, what can be said abt me besides all da negative stuff?? I dun wanna go into it anymore. It really spoilt my mood. I started thinking things in a terrible way..maybe even scary..da way I sounded like I was really giving up on studies, on life, on myself. ==>Sorry for rejecting ur call yar..I really wasn't in da mood to talk...aniwae really appreciate ur concern..thx..*hugZ* =)

I'm just so shagged. And tml's a sch day, for goodness sake. Obviously I haven't done any work again. Da camp was kind of an excuse, but da fact is I really dun haf da mood to study..do my hmwork..I'm just so tired lah..and my arm is aching like mad..I dunno why..even as I'm typing this I'm falling asleep..and it's only abt 10pm lah..so early!!! But 2 days of intensive practice + 3 hrs of slp is quite enough to kill me..

Much as I wanna stay awake longer, I really dun think I can take it lor. Feel so dead to da world. *sigH*

me
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10:02 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]