Saturday, April 10, 2004
1:18 PM
Been feeling out of sorts da past few days.

Went to Sentosa on Fri for da whole day..was really fun and I enjoyed myself..took lotsa pics too! Hee..but after that I developed this annoying headache..thought it would go away after slping thru da nite..but nopez, it continued all da way even until last night..*grr* Plus I've been having some kinda tummy upset..felt really uncomfy and all I wanted to do was to slp..which was mostly wad I did yesterday after I got home from band..so instead of going out as originally planned, I slept my way until dinner..what a waste of a whole day! >_<

Today's da last day of a 3 day wkend..and I haven't started on a single piece of hmwork!! Manz..I am so screwed..*sigH* Supposed to do today..but still not in da mood..like when am I ever in da mood for work right..*dotZ*

Let's see..I'm waaaay lagging behind in sch work again..what's new..*rolls eyes* Forgot to get my article bk back so I'm gonna hafta rush thru it during 1st period tml..plus da 3 different Lit essays due on Tue, Wed and Thu respectively..wth!!! All thx to a particular someone..2 was bad enuff, you had to make us end up wif 3?! *bLeaH*

Whatever. I can't be bothered with you anymore. Bah.

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Thursday, April 08, 2004
10:01 PM
Da geog pple in my class are in Kuantan now even as I'm typing this..miss ya lotz!!! Jeannie dear! Hope you didn't get too sick during da bus ride yar! Hee...told u to msg me to tell me when you all reach...but as usual you must haf forgotten..*grinZ* Was so quiet today w/o Mel!!! Ahaha..miss ya gal! *smiLeZ*

Then ar..da most amazing thing happened..I actually went home with TX!!! Omg! Considering what I think of him and all that..it's pretty unbelievable..haha..and to be honest, he was really quite nice..da average crappy guy..and we could actually hold a conversation all da way sia..hmm...or maybe he's just a nicer person outside of band? Haha I dunno lah..hee..

Overall was a pretty good day today actually..except I kept getting "tortured" by laoba..*bleaH* Muz sue him for child abuse!!! Ahaha..so evil to his nu er..hee..even pple like JH and Laura were wondering how can he do this to his senior..except they didn't noe abt da laoba-nu er part..*Lolz*

Tml is a public holiday! No sch! *yays!* =) I'm going to Sentosa!!! Hahaha..I'm a happy gal! Lalala...*grinZ* Think I'm going nuts liaoz..hee..but nvm..

Hmm...later got OC...should I watch? Should go slp early hor..very tired lately..but I wan watch lehz..like so nice liddat! Then got shuai ge and mei nu...lolz..see how lah..haha... =)

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10:01 PM

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Tuesday, April 06, 2004
10:28 PM
Is there any point in liking someone who doesn't feel da same way about you? Or even if da feeling's mutual, both parties know nothing will come out of it, so why continue?

I dun understand it, really. Like some couples I know who are doing exactly this. Won't it be more painful when everything finally comes to an end? Cos' it would all seem so unreal..like as if it was a dream which ended just like that. All those times spent together..does it count for anything? And da party who put in so much more...if it were me, I would feel so cheated. Or maybe that's cos' I already feel this way. *shrugZ*

I just find it so pointless to get involved in a relationship sumtimes. Especially nowadays. How many pple actually mean it when they tell their other half "I love you"? How many couples are together purely out of love? I mean, sure, there are those who fit da bill. But what about da rest? Those players...those who are with so-and-so cos' it elevates their status yada yada..so many couples put on an act for da sake of showing to others that they, too, are part of da world of perfect lovers. What bullshit.

Perfect love. Does it really exist? Couples who stay together till the end of time. Is it really out of perfect love? Why do so many pple vow that "till death do us part" when they know that they can't hold to their end of da promise? Don't you pple know that promises made are not to be broken, even more so for vows?

Love is blind. I think it's da pple who make love blind. Sometimes, I dun think it's blind to da obstacles couples encounter in their love life. I think love is blind to the harsh reality that not every love is pure and perfect, unblemished and blissful.

But for those who really do possess this kind of perfect love, I'm happy for you, really. I wonder when will da day come when I can claim to be such a person. I dun forsee it happening anytime soon. But a girl can hope, can't she? After all, what is life without hope? But I'm not gonna use that as my life's basis. I dare not rely on love to survive, unlike pple who believe wholeheartedly that love equals life.

Maybe that day will never come. Not for me, anyway. But it doesn't matter. I dun need perfect love of that kind to survive. I just need da love of my family and friends. That's enough. =)

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10:28 PM

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Monday, April 05, 2004
5:12 PM
Got back my GP paper today. Da essay was terribly done manz...oh god..what da hell was I doing?? Da compre wasn't very much better either...>_< I feel so....so...useless? It's, like, I'm such a failure in everything! *sigH*

But da remedial with Mrs Noordin really helped..at least I know where I went wrong..what I should have done..really hope that I can improve by leaps and bounds in time to come..or rather, now! But I know that all this takes lotsa time and effort lah..

Hmm..I think debates are really fun..hee..Ah Zor was preparing for his debate with Charles on Thursday..about capital punishment..I think he will win lor..haha..he's really very good! Precise and he thought of almost every available point for rebuttal..hee..must go learn from him sia..he said that he'll help me to prepare for mine oso...*grinZ*

Manz this is totally annoying! Dee wrote me a testimonial on Friendster..but no matter how I try to approve it, it just won't be accepted! I mean, it's, like, telling me I've approved da testimonial, yet there's this thingy which keeps popping out and telling me I have 1 testimonial to approve...it's driving me nuts!!! *screams*

Speaking of Dee, I heard from Aloy that their concert last Sat was a huge success! He said he was really surprised that they were so good; so am I! I mean, not to say that my band is lousy, but when I left 2 years ago, I'm pretty sure at that time da band didn't deserve da type of comments and praises which I heard from Aloy. So it means that they sound really, really good now! He was saying they were very in tune, and even when they went outta tune for a piece, they quickly adjusted to each other! Oh manz...I'm really so happy to hear that! It's, like, Mr Sim hasn't wasted his efforts in teaching da band..I'm sure they'll be aiming for Gold next yr..*smiLeZ* How I wish I went ahead to listen last Sat aniwae..I really regret it manz..*sigH* But too bad...I broke my promise...oh well...nvm..will just hafta content myself with da knowledge that they're that good after all...and maybe go back to hear them one day... =)

Wah..more than half da day gone..I haven't started on my revision yet..really afraid of lagging behind sia..can't afford to do that anymore, but I just don't have da discipline! I'd rather sit and idle my day away than to mug sia..so much for coming up with a revision plan..*dotZ* Really gotta change my attitude towards studies...or I'll never make it to uni at this rate...what a scary thought! *shudders* See how lor..I'm still not doing my tutorials..as usual, I can choose to pick da easy way out and go back to yr 1..but there's just so many things I can't leave behind..so many pple I can't bear to part with..whether or not we will still be in da same sch...I think I seriously hafta sit down and organise my thoughts..and come to a final conclusion...*sigH*

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