Saturday, April 03, 2004
11:34 PM
What a long day!

Had band prac as usual today..enjoyed myself cos' of my wonderfully crazy section..*Lolz* I finally made da decision not to go for da concert..was a pretty tough choice..still feel very bad for disappointing my juniors..seems like I'm alwiz letting them down and breaking my promises..=( Sorrie to my dear juniors..I'll go da next time k..really promise!!! >_<

With no concert to attend, of cos' I was pretty free after prac..went out with Ah Zor to Orchard..Mavis joined us later, but we din exactly get anything done then we left..which was when I got Guan Yu to come out and accompany me...haha..that gal ar..wah...*grinZ* Like a hyperactive parrot liddat...*Lolz* GY, if you see this, dun kill me!!! Wahaha... =p

Oh no..I haven't mugged Econs!!! *manZ* There goes my test on Monday..*sigH* I am so gonna get it from PD..at da parent-teacher meeting too..like how he fed my parents with horrible stuff abt me last year..I ended up getting a huge scolding!!! *bLeaH* Hate PD! He sux! *hmpH*

I have so many many things weighing down my mind now..why can't life be as simple as ABC? If only I had less things to worry abt..less problems to cope with..won't life be so much simpler? Less stressful? Actually, I dun really know..maybe that won't be da case? *shrugZ* No one can live without problems..but having too many if these can be worse sometimes huh..going through this rough patch in life..which I dun know if it will end..and when will it conclude..life is not always smooth sailing..but sometimes I do wish to return to my childhood..those carefree days filled with an innocence which only children possess...*sigH* I can't turn back time, but at least I can console myself with da fact that I once possessed that very same childlike innocence...

me
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11:34 PM

*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

Friday, April 02, 2004
12:52 AM
Finally got a pretty nice looking blogskin..quite sweet actually..but abit da sad..not that it doesn't match my mood now..*shrugZ*

I'm pissed until I'm tired. So it's true that being angry tires you out. I should just stop being mad at I dunno who and I dunno what..and just log off da comp and go slp..there's band tml..really no mood to go, but it's pretty duh that I dun have a choice...*bLeaH*

Haiz dunno lah...whatever..haven't solved my problem yet..it's just making me more tired and angry..yeah, I can't get rid of da feeling of being pissed...maybe some slp will do da trick?..

I feel so drained. So lost. So...gone. It's like I'm looking down at myself, typing this in front of da computer..and not actually feeling like I'm here doing this physically..manz...am I even making any sense...I guess not.

Ohh it's past 12am already...Happy 18th birthday Shan! Hope you'll like da prez we got for ya..hee..shall msg u again in da morning..muz enjoy ur bdae dear! Comes only once a yr..hee..*muaCkZ*

K I'm really shagged I think. If I still dun go to bed I'm definitely gonna kena frm my mum. Whatever.

me
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*[dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today]*

.girl in question.
[geri]
[turned twenty ONE on 28th jan!]
[aquarian]
[shopaholic]
[ij to tj to nbs]
[crazy moments]
[can be a biatch]
[2903]

.adores.
[rainbow] [stars]
[trumpet] [sunshine]
[monokuro boo] [tigger]
[shopping] [candy empire]
[family and friends*hugs*]

.take note.
nothing for now.all in my head.

.wants.
|i just want YOU to be alright. recover soon please..|

.current loves.
||my family||

.darlings.
amala amanda amy anneson benji berenice candice cherish cheryl chih lin christina cindy corinne daniel darren dawn deborah dern eileen elayne gerald guanyu huiteng huixun jasmine jeannie jiabao jieying jinyuan joan kingman layleng lianya luther marinah melf mitchelle neo nina ntusb pamela peiqin pyrite's blog sheryl tow boon vanessa wenhui yifen youwei ziyun

.click on them.
baumhouse birks- gso birks- jestel kg friendster haloscan hollister hyper-act! michael phelps club naturlich footshop orisinal who lives near you

.memories.
|tjband|
[syf 2003]
[prelude XXIII]
[prelude XXIV]
[trumpet section 2003]
[band thailand trip]
[trumpet section outing]
[wasbe 2003]
|2903|
[prom 2004!]
[class outing to beach]
[2903 album]
[sentosa]
|iras|
[concen TCOs]
|ij clique|
[bbq at bern's house]